Monday, October 26, 2009

Emotional Monday

Hated to go into work...turn on my computer, and see the deadly news of troops in Afghanistan on Monday. Doesn't help that someone close to me is over there.
The rain today was very symbolic of the tears being shed over the loss.
It's also dawned on me that I am thinking about Ryan so much more lately...probably due to the fundraiser, but just feel this constant strong presence around me. (The quote in photo is from Ryan and placed on a bench in Central Park taken by my older brother Case's friend)
Last night I freaked out because as I was reading a story to Max in bed, the CD player in the living room started playing. No one was in the living room and all the lights were off. So, I crept inside, peaked around, and shut the radio off.

It was weird, because it took me back to New York City when I took off to drive back to Maryland after Ryan's death. My radio hadn't worked in my car for 2 years, and all of a sudden, as I said goodbye to my mom, brother, and sister, the radio started to play (I just died in your arms tonight) as I headed back. I immediately called my mom, and told her Ryan did it. So last night, when the radio just turned on by itself, I jumped!

Was that Ryan again?

Couldn't run cold and drizzly to push Max...but had a great running weekend. Look forward to running a 10K at Camp Mabry on Veteran's Day...probably the only race I will do until the Marathon...
The plaque reads: "It is necessary to dig deep within oneself to discover the hidden grain of steel called will" Ryan Shay

Need sleep:)

1 comment:

  1. Wow. What a great quote.

    Very sad about the troops. Maybe they'll get some help soon.

    I love that your brother stays with you. Stay strong!