T R U S T

The way my blogs went for the Austin Marathon were a little different than they are a present time. It was my first marathon, I was nervous, excited, anxious and running was kind of new to me again. I am not a running veteran by any means now, but there's only so much one can talk about a 7, 10, 15, 20 mile run without feeling too redundant.

One thing I have really tried to work on over the past couple of years is learning to trust again, and trying not to give too much trust to those who are not deserving. It can be tricky as I seem to wear my heart on my sleeve and enjoy letting those I care about know how much they mean to me. On the other hand, sometimes I can reveal too much without allowing others to prove they are trustworthy.

With the last marathon, I put my trust into a various groups of people and they came through with flying colors to help with this fundraiser. In my personal life, I have started to let down walls that were pretty thick due to a death and divorce within a month from each other because I felt my life was on the right track again. I wanted to share my happiness... the joy that came from talking about Ryan, giving back to our troops, finishing a 26.2 mile run, and managing Lupus.

But as my personality goes, I can just build those walls back up the minute I feel I cannot trust someone. So, going into this next challenge, I want to work on the ability to better judge when I am giving too much too soon, or not being trusting enough. This applies to work, this fundraiser, and friends. I am thankful for my family because they are who I turn to whenever I may be in doubt.

As flaws goes, it's one I plan to tweak a bit. And now for that run---7 miles tonight---on the trail, with a slight breeze to keep the temperature pretty okay for Austin---76 Degrees

Regretfully, I head to bed, as it's way too late!