Running and Life in General

Happy Two Thousand and Twelve!

2012-01-04T09:28:00.000-08:00

Let's see what the universe has in store for us in 2012! Hope everyone is well!

Just to catch up, I finished the 2011 ING New York Marathon on November 6th. It was GREAT to go back and finish a goal set from the previous year. It was an amazing experience and brought on with the help of many people. I will forever be thankful.

I am in the midst of trying to find new employment, so that keeps me busy these days, but hope to run a race again soon.

Take care.

F E A R

2011-08-07T21:24:00.000-07:00

(my bud)

Ahh, so finally, a post. It's only been 8 months since last writing on here. But I have been running again, yeah! I mean, granted this has been the worst summer I have experienced since moving to Austin 2.5 years ago, but after 2 weeks of adjusting to the brutal temperatures, it's "okay".

I didn't think it was going to happen, but it did, I started up again. I mean running is my one drug, my therapy, my escape from all the thoughts that stay clustered in my head through out the day, and even in 105 degree weather, I love it.

Fear kept me from running. Last November I was sitting in a ER room moments before the 2010 NYC Marathon was to begin. I was suppose to be running, you know making Ryan proud, giving up my own sweat and tears to all those who donated to the Wounded Warrior Project, and completing a goal. A goal that seemed so unrealistic when I first rolled into Austin, Texas as a scared single mom with no idea of where I stood as a individual.

I am a firm believer that we get out of life what we put into life. So, when I have my moments of wondering what the hell I should be doing with my life, I turn to what makes me feel fulfilled. You must know that I thought about the ING NYC Marathon quite often since flying home with a token scar barely noticeable today.

It's not that I feel I owe anybody for not finishing the race last year, but for myself, it was a goal that remains incomplete. Sure, I have other goals: pay the remaining balance of the lovely NYC hospital bill, continue to provide for my son, manage my Lupus so it never becomes the end of me, help the Wounded Warrior Project when I can, continue to honor Ryan, and try really hard to keep FEAR out of the equation.

You see, I want to say I am going to try and get to the 2011 NYC Marathon, but what if something happens again? I have been going back and fourth with this like a yo-yo for a few weeks. I been hitting the unforgiving scorching concrete and dusty trails in the hope that I may be brave enough to welcome the challenge again.

Then, I think about a certain person who is on his 3rd deployment and who has been working pretty much overseas for the past 5-6 years trying to make good in every job/situation he is dealt. This man has never once complained to me, well maybe once, when he said he couldn't wait to get back to the States because Africa was just too dang hot at the time he was writing me.

But that's about it. Every time I write about my ups and downs in my pretty much safe and comfortable environment with my son and I, he encourages me. He never makes me feel like my inconveniences are unworthy to speak of; instead he tells me he understands and compliments me in some way or another.

This friend and I have written back and fourth for a good part of 4 years, getting me through a divorce and a death. This man is someone I admire a great deal for all of his service he has given to our country and to other countries when working to improve the lives of local communities overseas.

If I say I am going to run a marathon, he says be careful, but doesn't tell me I cannot do it. And his lack of fear of working and living so far away and from the comforts we enjoy everyday is what helps me to step away from the fear that I will fail. You know, Ryan inspired me two years ago to start this journey, and now I have to give a lot of credit to a dear friend who inspires me today. This friend puts a smile on my face, and has a heart that has been able to reach me and encourage me at just the right moments through the years. So, because of him, I am re-charged for this running thing. I will go with a open mind and try my best. I will try, and I will try to get there again to complete the goal. I want to honor Ryan, and to let my friend know, if he can deploy for a 3rd time, I can try the NYC Marathon a 2nd time, right?

January 4, 2010 New Year, New Begining

2011-01-04T20:25:00.000-08:00

Well, it's been about a month since I last wrote. Today I felt motivated again, as I checked the mail and a very generous donation check was there to put us over $26,200 goal amount. Now we will be over $27,500 in generated funds for the Wounded Warrior Project in Ryan's memory. I am very proud today, but I would be lying if the New York City Marathon didn't still linger in the back of my head.

It seems life has been a little more stressful since that morning I got my appendix removed, instead of running the race of my dreams. A hefty hospital bill, new car, because 220,000 miles on my Chevy was about all it could do. Got a lot of use out of that car!

But today, as I just seemed a little more irritated than usual, I headed out for a smooth 5 mile run around Town Lake and my body just felt like jello all over--like an instant stress release, I was mellow! I couldn't help but think about Ryan, and how I just don't feel like stopping what I have started with Running For Ryan. Then, I got an email from my brother Case, who lives in South Korea, and he asked about running the NYC Marathon next fall for this cause, and I instantly wrote back: maybe we could do it together! So, with those spur of the moment words

coming out of my mouth, I feel like the challenge is still there to accomplish. I am VERY happy we reached the monetary goal this time around, and now I feel the only thing to do is increase the goal amount and keep going with this. I still have a runner dedicated to raise money for his Chicago Marathon debut this fall, so why not keep it going for all and anyone who still wants to help?!

The truth is, not running makes me cranky! I have signed up for the Livestrong Austin Half Marathon that takes place on February 20th, and hope to do a few more races here and there. NYC is in the back of my head, and depending how this summer goes, it could be an option for 2011.

Thanks again to everyone who supports this cause. I really am hoping 2011 will bring great things to Running For Ryan. I am even thinking of starting a non-profit in Ryan's memory. Anyone willing to help or suggest ways to help me get the non-profit off the ground, please contact me at: runningforryan@gmail.com This non-profit could open the doors to generating donations to various charitable events/organizations in Ryan's honor.

Take care.

Sarah

DEC. 5, 2010: The Infamous Appendectomy

2010-12-05T19:49:00.000-08:00

TOP: Friday night...feeling good, heading to Runner's World gig in a cab...no problems! Then: ER, with an IV and happy medicine, thought I would hydrate up and still run, still in a good mood, NEXT: A few hours after appendectomy, team member Erin O'Mara gave my her NYC Marathon medal, and it sparked a tear or two, LAST: Made it to Central Park to visit Ryan's bench and rock 3 days after surgery (not gonna lie it hurt to sit in that pic)

It's been almost a month since I flew to NYC to run in a deeply heartfelt race in honor of my brother, Ryan Shay. I tried to be honest without being too open in most of my blogs during the year of running and raising funds for the Wounded Warrior Project. However, the moment the ER doctor told me I couldn't run the race (which was a few hours away), I just wanted to bawl like a baby and scream out loud, "Why!"

But instead, this is how it played out:

I am originally from Michigan, and so my older sister Jodie, and two younger brothers, Nathan and Elliott, car pooled together from Detroit and Chicago and drove all the way to NYC to watch the big race. I flew in on Friday late afternoon, and all was well. I was worn out a bit, but super excited to be in the Big Apple; my adrenaline on super speed. I dashed over to the Runner's World event, and then headed back to the hotel on Friday evening. I was anxious, but slept none the less. Saturday I woke up with no problems, but started feeling nauseous an hour or two later, so I ate, and then the food came right up! From about noon until 7-8pm I threw up and felt stabbing/twisting pains in my stomach. I was super dehydrated and asked my sister to take me to the ER.

I was determined to run the race, which at this point was less than 12 hours away. We went to the closet ER, St. Luke's Roosevelt, in Manhattan. I must have looked like crap because they got me to the back pretty quickly and started in IV for hydration, and a little happy medicine for the stomach pain. But then the pain started sliding toward my appendix and that's when the CT revealed I should get my appendix removed. It was about 2 in the morning at this point, and I was still determined to run. But they said no way, and so I cried for maybe 30 seconds. The meltdown I thought I would go through, I didn't.

Three years prior played through my head, when my brother was rushed to Lennox Hill hospital and died from a sudden heart attack at 28. I looked at my tired sister, and thanked God she was there to help me. My brothers would join her a few hours later after the procedure was completed.

When the surgeon, Scott Belsley (www.laparoscopic.md/) introduced himself before surgery, I was a little on edge, but also a little incoherent from lack of sleep and pain medicine. He told me I would be getting a laparoscopic appendectomy. This meant 3 small incisions. I thought, 3 seems worse than one slice near my appendix...but I was wrong! It's been almost a month, and you would never know I had my appendix out unless I told you. I don't know if every laparoscopic doctor performs with such skill at being non- invasive, but I would probably bet he has a lot of satisfied patients. I went in expecting a gash on my right side, and I have healed almost completely with barely a scar for proof.

I was feeling pretty good around Day 8. I would have ran around Day 10, but I haven't ran since the procedure was performed. I have been a little run down. The 2 CT scans and the contrast I had to pump into my body among other drugs left me wiped out when I returned to Austin on November 11th. I had to get back to work and play catch up and things are still a little off, but I hope to run again this week. I did a few walks near Thanksgiving time when my other sister flew in from the Netherlands and it felt good. I have a few more tests to get done, and hopefully all will be clear and I will put my running shoes by the front door again. I don't know if any of this has to do with my Lupus diagnosis from over a year ago, or if I had a really bad bug, or if I took too much on and wore my body down. But I really felt ready to run that marathon. One day, I am walking around, taking in the big city, the next I kissing cold porcelain and wishing the pain would go away.

People were shocked, my parents worried, but I was really thinking about how lucky I was at that moment in time. Just a couple of hours before the race and I was on my way to recovering from an appendectomy instead of being on the race course and falling out mid-run because I would have buckled over in pain, and well...it could have been a lot uglier.

I arrived to work on Monday, the 15th of November to a huge bouquet of flowers, and a banner that read, "Welcome Home, Sarah" The office even catered a welcome back lunch for me and we all just sat around and joked, "Maybe if you give a lung up next time, the boss will give us even more." Ahhh...and that was the moment, it really all made sense..."the next time"....yes, there is a next time, if the cards play out that way. When I was in the hospital, and someone mentioned that to me, I was thinking, no, this was it, and now the moment is gone forever. But, it was only my appendix, and there are thousands of appendix-less racing everyday.

So, today, I get a message from my Wounded Warrior team page that says, Karen Clay, has joined your team. Hmmm, really...it's been a month, and I was coming to terms that Running For Ryan was a closed chapter in my life, but then another guy, Andrew, from Chicago, wrote recently to see how he could run for Ryan.

It's been a month, and I didn't do the race that would have meant the world to me and my relationship with my lost brother, but that fact that I still have strangers joining the team made me get back in the computer today and give thanks again for all that I have, and to all those who care as much as I do about Ryan and our troops! Thanks!!!!!

The medal Erin gave me, I handed to my son Max after returning home, and he said, "cool, thanks." I told him I didn't get to run the race, but a friend gave me her medal. He told me I could run another one, and maybe get a trophy this time!:)

The goal was $26,200, and we getting near $22,000. Personally, the race was for my brother, but the donations that have gone to the Wounded Warrior Project, have made me feel proud because of the great support and joint effort of everyone invovled. If you feel I should run another marathon to make up for NYC, never say never....

Running For Ryan and Pete, and our Heroes

2010-10-31T21:06:00.000-07:00

Runner's world nite, Expo center, with coach, in a NY Taxi:)

Abdi, Ryan, Meb

(soldiers taking a break overseas; Ryan May 4, 1979-Nov. 3, 2007; Pete Feb. 3, 1979-Aug. 14, 2010)

NOVEMBER 5, 2010

Exhausted! Got into hotel about 5pm then headed to the Expo to get bib number, yeah! Next, headed out to meet some great heroes and athletes at the Runner's World gig, and now about to hit the sack. Tomorrow I will take a solo trip to "Ryan's Rock" and a little jog around Central Park. Everything is going well so far, but hopefully don't get too tired on all the adrenaline I am on right now!:) Thanks for your suppport! We can/will get to the goal!

NOVEMBER 3, 2010

$20,000 of $26,200 Goal Met! Thanks!

I just finished making the running top for the race. I used my top from the Austin Marathon and tweaked it a little bit. I want to give thanks to a lot of people before I leave Austin and this could be the last night I have time to write. Gary Brimmer, from San Antonio, was the very first person to contact me about getting the word out about my first marathon. I posted a little blurb on a running message board, and he contacted me right away and got me in contact with John and Stacey Conley of Conley Sports. All of these individuals continue to be very supportive. Also, Sente Mortgage of Austin, TX. Their dedication to the cause for the Austin Marathon was heartfelt and an amazing act of kindness. Pam LeBlanc, from the Austin American Statesman, the Notre Dame Club of Austin, Notre Dame Alumni office head quarters, especially Mark LaFrance. Ryan Posanby and Mark Floreani from Flotrack (and my tenants...ha ha) Bumping into Bart Yasso at the Austin Marathon really took this fundraiser to a new direction. Bart introduced himself to me, and went back and asked Runner's World to follow up with me. That lead to the November article, which has opened the doors for a lot of positive attention and donations to the cause through various other current media. A special thanks to Mary Wittenberg and the NYRR club!

Erin O'Mara is my new hero. Erin is from Michigan and is an excellent distance runner (2:50) marathoner, and has her own story to tell that will touch any one's heart. She barely knows me, and joined up to help raise $2,000 with me in just the last month. She is running NYC too, and I can't wait to see her do well!
I had an awesome support group in Austin from my son's family to great friends and co-workers who all chipped in to help entertain Max while I got in the longer runs. Most importantly, my siblings for always being there and never doubting me, and taking the time to hike it to NYC again for this occasion. Alicia and her family and really everyone who has supported Running For Ryan by donating money, training products, or encouraging words to get to the finish. Thanks!

Most of all, I give my appreciation and thanks to our troops! As an ex military spouse and getting Max through his father's deployment, I do know it's the hardest job in the world!

NOVEMBER 3, 2010

Today is the 3rd anniversary of Ryan's passing, and I awoke with some great energy and instantly thought about being in NYC in a few days. Today an insecurity I had a year ago about completing one marathon, let alone a second one seem to be hiding somewhere in the back of my head. Today, I remember Ryan with a smile on my face. I saw a miniature pug the other day and it reminded me of the last time I was with Ryan at his Flagstaff home in August of 2007. I probably mentioned this in an earlier blog, but Ryan's main goal at the time was to get my son,Max, and his dog to wrestle around on the floor the entire night...running down the stairs saying, "Guys check this out! It's so funny! You gotta see Max wrestle the dog."

That night, as Abdi was in his room, and another runner in her bedroom, and my brother Nate on the couch, Max and I camped out with Ryan and Alicia upstairs cracking jokes, and talking about old school stories from growing up and picking on each other through out the evening. That was the last night I spent with my brother before heading on the road to drive back out East the following morning. That weekend was precious, and I should of had my camera out, but as usual, you just don't think it will ever be the last day...

Today I give thanks to my mom and dad who have been supporting me through this year of running and fundraising. I have seen how they have changed in the course of 3 years. My father especially, softening his ways, and while they are still very active in the Northern Michigan running community with coaching and mentoring, running doesn't seem to be the top priority these days as well as peace of mind.

My dear sister-in-law, Alicia, you are thought about today. I look forward to seeing you in NYC and taking in the beauty of Central Park in the fall and taking in the excitement and wonderment of such an event in such a huge city!

OCTOBER 31, 2010

Someone forwarded me an article of Alicia Shay that was in the New York times today. Alicia was Ryan's wife. In the article she describes what the last 3 years has been like for her, and as his wife, I cannot imagine what it has been like dealing with the ups and downs since his passing. She also talks about how her future won't be that of a grieving widow, but of someone who wants to pursue her running dreams and continue to live her own life and get through this in her own way.
As his sister, I know what the last 3 years have been like and mean to me. What I got from her article was that no one can tell you when to stop grieving but with a loss that has been great for my entire family, we have learned to appreciate our current relationships and have found happiness among the moments of sorrow.
I too once loved someone so much, but at the time we were together, I did not lose him to death, our paths just went separate ways after college was finished for the two of us. When my college sweetheart Predrag "Pete" Dakovic did die in a car accident in his hometown of Porgorica, Serbia on August 14 of this year, I was still shocked as if I had just said goodbye to him when he left America to go back home. The world is made up of loss, but it is how we choose to honor those who have died that I believe will make us better humans while we enjoy what and who surrounds us while we live each day in appreciating the moment.

So, on November 7, 2010, I am going to run this marathon in NYC and do it for Ryan and Pete, and all the service men and women who have left this world too soon. As quoted on the Wounded Warriors Project homepage: "The greatest casualty is to be forgotten".

No amount of time can fill the void of a lost loved one, but it does certainly help us to treat living as precious and hopefully encourages us to always let those in our life know how special they are before it's time to go.

One week before the BIG day!!! I hope if you are reading this, you continue to spread the word and help get us to our goal of $26,200. It's never too late to donate, and it would be a great honor to see us reach or surpass this amount. We are at $19,000! THANKS FOR YOUR SUPPORT!

100% of donations for the fundraiser go to the Wounded Warrior Project

CREDIT CARD DONATIONS MADE BY CLICKING ON DONATE ICON ABOVE, then click on Sarah Shay, or any team member and follow online directions

OR CHECKS CAN BE MADE PAYABLE TO: WOUNDED WARRIOR PROJECT and mailed to

Running For Ryan

c/o Sarah Shay

P.O. Box 300766
Austin, TX 78703

information at: runningforryan@gmail.com

2 WEEKS BEFORE RACE DAY!

2010-10-24T18:44:00.000-07:00

(me and Max , and girlfriend's hubby pumpkin carving this weekend:))

It's Sunday, October 24th, and two weeks to go before the big day! I am getting nervous! It's starting to sink in and today is the first time my nerves have become a little uneasy. But, there is also excitement as I feel there will be a big relief when the race is finished. For over a year, I have been blogging, running, and juggling the day to day responsibilities of a mom as well getting to work everyday to bring home the bacon. So, come November 8th (day after the race) I will be sore, but pleased to complete a journey I thought would have been finished after the Austin marathon in February.

Ryan continues to be my thoughts daily, and as I mentioned before, there is not a day I do not think about him, and how his appearance in a dream of mine last September started this whole challenge. Three years ago, when he passed away, there was a definite missing link between myself and my other 6 siblings. But now, I have to say, I feel closer to my siblings than I ever have, and the sadness I felt then is not like the inspiration I feel now. I know the death of my young, beautiful, determined, and often stubborn brother will always have an affect on my own personal relationships in the future. I find myself nervous when I don't hear from someone I care about, or sometimes overly apologizing if I feel I upset someone because of the big word, regret. I think I mentioned before that I was suppose to go to Ryan's race in NYC the day he passed away. The last words I said to him on the phone were, "see you at the race, punk". But, with a 2 year old, and a big city I was not sure how to get around in, I changed my mind last minute and left a voice mail on his phone to tell him good luck.

Honestly, after the running the Austin marathon in his memory, that's when the guilt of not driving to NYC that November lifted off my shoulders.

I ran 14 miles yesterday, and felt pretty tired. Even more tired than my 22 mile run the week before, so with 2 weeks to go, I am going to get some nice easy running in, and prepare mentally for the trip and race day. All I want to do is carry these legs over the finish line and visit Central Park and visit with family and see NYC in not so gloomy way like we all did when we went back together the following year in 2008. I do look forward to the weather! As it's going to be in the 90's this week in Austin! Wondering if I will ever get used to these high temps!

WITH 2 WEEKS TO GO, WE ARE AT $19,000! THAT'S AWESOME, BUT $26,200 IS OUR GOAL...YOUR DONATION AND SUPPORT MATTERS!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!

http://online.wsj.com/article/SB10001424052748704361504575552311611374060.html?KEYWORDS=meb+keflezighi

2010-10-18T18:42:00.000-07:00

(brother Stephan, Meb, and me Houston-2010)

OCTOBER 18, 2010 BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!

In the above link, there is an article written in the Wall Street Journal about Meb Keflezighi, defending NYC Marathon Champ, explaining how there have been struggles trying to convince America, he is an American athlete.

About half-way through the article, Meb's wife, Yordanos, explains how my brother would always be one of the first runners to defend Meb against the negative comments frequently spewed by some other runner (who I think might just wish they could run half as fast as Meb). I read this article a couple of days ago, and it choked me up inside. It seems easier to talk about my brother these days than to hear someone else talk about him because it makes me realize just how much he is missed by more than just his family.

I know Meb had a great bond with Ryan, as well as Ryan's housemate Abdi. Both runners not American born, but running and training in the country they love. It makes me swell up in tears and beam with pride that Ryan was one of those runners who encouraged Meb and if he could have seen Meb win the NYC Marathon last year, he would have been the first to congratulate him for representing the USA strongly.

While I am nowhere in any category as Meb, I have had a lot of self doubt over the last year. Especially now that media has picked up from Flo Track, to Runner's World, local coverage, and inter net coverage through his alma mater, Notre Dame, I have put myself out there. I didn't know a year ago I would be asking the public to donate to a very important cause all the while doing it in Ryan's memory.

If anyone knew my brother, they would know he never settled for less. When it came to running, it was like, I was the younger sister, and he was the big brother. In high school, I had one shining moment when we won Cross Country Regionals together. It was my senior year, and his freshman year. I remember he came up to me and patted me on the back and said "Good job." I almost probably felt like saying, "Thanks, coach." But instead, I just just beamed inside, knowing I was never going to have a moment like that again.

Someone recently told me they didn't support my marathon because I have a disease (Lupus) and a son to think about. Well the other day, Max mentioned once again, if I win the marathon (aren't kids cute) that it must go on his dresser in his bedroom. So, this time instead of doubting if it was all worth it, and if my body will make it through another 26.2 miles, I will just give it my best and only worry about believing in myself. What I have recently learned and I am 34, so it took awhile, that no one will ever believe in me until I trust myself completely. It doesn't hurt that my favorite little 5 year old continues to give me his blessing!

Now I just need to find a good trophy shop in Austin.:)

OCTOBER 17, 2010 22 MILES!

2010-10-17T19:27:00.000-07:00

I am pretty exhausted, as I recover from a 22 mile run today, but very happy to have completed the distance. It took about 4h15m, and it's pretty hard to run for 4 plus hours at at time, but my mind was full with a lot of thoughts, so it helped to make the time go by a little faster. It's probably the longest run I will do until race day on November 7.

Thanks for the donations that continue to come in and please keep spreading the word as we try to reach $26,200 goal. We are over $17,000 right now and that's pretty awesome. For once, I am too tired for words, so going to sign out for the night. Take care.

OCTOBER 4, 2010 21 Miles and a Goat:)

2010-10-04T19:20:00.000-07:00

The past Saturday I did 21 miles! Truthfully, the time was slow, but I am really not complaining. To be honest, with the crazy hot temps. over the summertime, I wasn't sure if I would get in any extra long runs, so pleased with that, and pleased my legs keep moving. Slight joint pain lately in the toes of my right foot, but it usually gets better through out the day. Recently I got plugs in my tear ducts to help force tear production and it's been amazing. Ah, so much for not being able to cry anymore...ha ha. Seriously, it's a great and simple procedure and since I could not afford the $200 a month prescription it was an affordable alternative to relieving my eyes. Do it, if you have the same problem!!!

The run was smooth,(best part was seeing a woman push hear GOAT in a stroller! Gotta love Austin) and I look forward to getting in another 20 plus mile run before race day. Today's run was amazing. Short on help this week with watching Max while I run, so asked my boss so kindly to let me leave early enough to get in a run before picking up Max from school, and off I went! The trail was quiet, the temperature PERFECT, and my mind was totally relaxed! I have been trying to get in the zone I remember being in last winter while training for Austin Marathon. And today I was there! Once again, crossing over the I35 bridge, I looked down at the water and thought about Ryan. It's amazing how over the course of a year I have went from desperately trying to come to terms with his death, to embracing his spirit that lingers pleasantly each time I touch the ground and start running. Sometimes he hears me cursing pretty loudly (especially in the dreaded summer heat) but today I am pretty sure I was smiling the whole time I ran for 70 minutes, and it's these exact moments that make me appreciate everything good in my life right now. It was an "Ahhhhhhh" kind of a day.

SEPTEMBER 29, 2010

2010-09-29T06:35:00.000-07:00

Yeah! Yesterday was a training day I wish I had everyday! Town Lake was bustling with determined runners zig-zagging all over the trail. You could tell everyone was enjoying the "cool" 80 degree evening and I enjoyed a very satisfying tempo run. I knocked off 15 min. of a 7 mile run and only 2 minutes slower than my average 7 mile training run last winter.

I love this time of the year in Austin, and anywhere in America. Fall is definitely my favorite season, and with a month away before the big day, look forward to being in New York and catching all the leaf change colors we don't really see that much down here in Texas.

It's a pretty chilled day, and I look forward to another run this evening. I appreciate all the support and donations. It's really sinking in, that in about 40 days...I will have to complete this marathon, rain or shine, pain or no pain...but it's the thought of the challenge that keeps my adrenaline going!

Please remember if paying by check to make payment to: Wounded Warrior Project

and mail to:

Running For Ryan

c/o Sarah Shay

P.O. Box 300766

Austin, TX 78703

THANKS FOR SUPPORTING OUR TROOPS AND KEEPING RYAN'S MEMORY ALIVE!

9-25-2010 18 MILES & KIND DONATIONS

2010-09-25T16:41:00.000-07:00

Hi there. Oh, it's a pretty super day because today I completed 18 miles in high 80 degree weather. Granted, such a blessing from the 100 degree summer heat, but NEVER thought I would be able to do 18 in these temperatures. It was kind of slow, about 30 min. slower than my winter training, but I am pleased anyway.

We have received some kind donations over the past few days, either in the mail, or on-line and I want to say, THANKS SO MUCH!

After the checks go through we will be near the $17,000 mark! I really appreciate the ongoing support. After today's run, I feel like I will be able to conquer 26.2 miles again!

On a side note...Thursday I was coming down with an awful cold. My head was pounding, throat scratchy, neck swollen, sinuses clogged, and a bit of the fever aching feeling. remembered I had I had these symptoms in early July and ignored them...ended up with full blown bronchitis, and had to go on antibiotics. The cough lasted over 30 days.

So, I was rummaging through my over-the-counter meds and found some Sinus Buster spray I used several months ago. Totally forgot I had it, and totally forgot how great it works until I tried it again. I don't get paid to say this, but I wanted to share my secret weapon that got rid of my symptoms and pain within a day and a half. I was literally going to go into the doctor on Friday and say, hit me up good with something...I gotta do 18 on Saturday.

I used the natural, red pepper spray, and viola...I am feeling 95% better. I swear on this spray, and recommend anyone to try it. It saved me a trip to the doctor, and it's all natural...and I am pretty sure I got it a Wal Greens. I think it's about $15. It's costs money to take time off of work, pay a co-pay at the doctors, and then, for me anyway, shell out hardworking money for an expensive prescription!! This product, as well as SCAPE sunblock have been great finds during my year of training for these past 2 marathons. Since early August facial lesions from my Lupus have pretty much been in remission, and I give a lot of credit to SCAPE because it has been the best sport's sunblock I have ever used. So, if you have Lupus and run outdoors, or you are prone to skin cancer, I would totally recommend it to you! It's not a cure, but it's a good training buddy to wear on your skin.

Once again...THANKS FOR THE DONATIONS!!!! Please keep spreading the word.

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Running For Ryan

c/o Sarah Shay

P.O. Box

300766

Austin, TX 78703

PAYABLE TO: WOUNDED WARRIOR PROJECT

(100% of donations go directly to WWP after we credit amount to Team Ryan Shay Memorial)

Thanks!

SEPTEMBER 21, 2010

2010-09-21T20:47:00.000-07:00

I felt alive again today. Similar to all the running/emotional highs I had while training last winter for the Austin Marathon. I was looking forward to a run after work, but it started pouring rain around 4:30 pm and I just stared at the window, thinking, oh great, day 3 without a run! But, Mother Nature was kind enough to stop to a drizzle by the time I hit the trail. Barely anyone was running, and I pretty much had the 7 mile run to myself.

It's as if today everything that is been so chaotic over the past several months just stopped for my 70 mins of training. The air was comfortable, there was no sun blazing in the sky, and my confidence increased due to the fact my run time was almost comparable to when I was training in the cold weather.

I also have Ryan in my thoughts more often again, as date of the NYC Marathon grows closer. On my run today, I remember when I wrote about a dream I had about running this race with my brother...before I even fathomed running the NYC Marathon. I think I even had the dream before I finished the Austin Marathon. I would have to go back and check when I wrote about it. But the main part of the dream involves us starting together, and running over a bridge and heading up into some clouds. Ryan took a break and sat down, and said, something like, "Now go now...get to the finish", and I jumped down from the clouds on to a road and kept on running.

It was the second dream I had about finishing a race with him in the dream. So, I really think it's meant to be to finish this race for him.

I feel like I lost focus during the summer, and it felt so nice to run a great tempo run and make peace with all the zillion thoughts in my head relating to everything I have been juggling lately.

I felt very connected to Ryan on this run, and to top it off, as I was crossing the I35 bridge today, nearing the halfway point, Journey's "Dont' Stop Believing" played into my headphones and for once in what seems like a long while, I started visualizing the finish line in NYC again. Yeah!:)

THANKS FOR YOUR SUPPORT AND HONORING RYAN'S MEMORY WHILE GIVING BACK TO OUR TROOPS!

September 20, 2010 16 miles and a Bite

2010-09-20T20:07:00.000-07:00

(crazy bite mark on my leg just before heading out for 16 mile run)

Ah, finally, blessed with some decent temps as last Saturday's run was welcome with overcast skies and rain. I managed to get my longest run in since the Austin Marathon, 16 miles. As I headed to the car to make my way to Town Lake, I notice a bite on my right thigh instantly go black and blue with a bite mark in the middle. It was kind of scary because I can't remember having a reaction like that before, but after a couple of days it's down to a pale bruise and starting to disappear. Being in Texas and all, you never know what's lingering around waiting to take bite at you!

I am trying my best to get back to more frequent messages on this blog, especially because it's getting so close to race day, November 7, 2010.

This time around, fundraising has been difficult. I am so much busier with work, and in life in general, that I haven't had nearly the amount of opportunities I had raising money for the Austin Marathon. But, every little bit helps! The Flo Track interview brought in nearly $1,300, and I did have the chance to do some mail outs over the weekend while Max was with his dad. Thanks, again to Erin O'Mara who helped bring in $1,000 over the past few weeks by joining the team.

Right now, I just need to keep on asking that if you are reading this and can spare a few dollars, or know others willing to give to such an important cause, to please donate and keep spreading the word.

Thanks again for all the support! Your donation helps get us to $26,200 for some amazing servicemen and women who often use the Wounded Warrior Project to run, bike or walk again with loss of limb(s) in different sporting events across the nation.

SEPTEMBER 13, 2010

2010-09-13T19:18:00.000-07:00

(good bud, "B" when he was overseas)

Hi there! It's been awhile, a couple of weeks, I guess. Well last week was just crazy at work with Tropical Hermine whisking through Central Texas, and all that could accumulate work wise, did. Happy Belated Birthday to my dad and sister Amie who share a birthday on September 11. My thoughts did go out to all of those who lost loved ones on that day. I knew it was September 11, but I forgot as I hit the trail Saturday morning for a blistering, insane, wanted to pass out and just cry 14 mile run in 95 degree weather. It was the slowest 14 mile run I have ever attempted, nearly 2 hours and 50 min. As hydrated as I was, I still felt like my body would burst into flames at any given moment. But I was heading on Riverside and bunch of motorcycles passed with American flags attached to their bikes, and it reminded me, it was 9/11. This naturally got me thinking about our troops, and just about being so grateful in general for the life I do have. I really try hard not to take things for granted (especially after Ryan passed away), but of course, we can stray from time to time, and occasionally need reminders of what really is important.So, simply seeing these bikes parade down the road, helped me truck through another mile or so with just a little more energy.

Recently I have been reconnected with a friend I have been writing for 3 years as he has worked and lived abroad as an active duty Army guy and now doing wonderful things far away as a civilian. He has been living and working in places I could not imagine, and always upbeat about his work, even when times are hard. It's great to keep in touch this long, and it seems we just always know when to reconnect and catch up when the timing is right. Also, happy to hear another friend has returned from Iraq, and safely back to work in the U.S. Now, waiting for my very best bud to return. It's been awesome catching each other on Skype, but look forward to having her back home!

Their selfless sacrifices do keep me humbled, and as I get into less than 2 months before race day, I will try hard to write more, and start reaching out to as many as I can about contributing to this great cause.

Good night!

8/29/10

2010-08-29T16:39:00.000-07:00

Being exposed to media can make you feel vulnerable, but it has helped the cause. In the past few days, Running For Ryan has gained $1,000, moving up to $15,600 of $26,200 goal. Mark, from Flotrack.org was kind enough to invite me over to their HQ for a brief interview, and though I was nervous as hell, I am glad it brought in some great donations. My thanks to Erin O'Mara, from Michigan who has a goal of $1,000 for Team Ryan Shay Memorial, and is well on her way to making it! She is running the NYC Marathon too.

BUT---You don't have to run the NYC Marathon to join the team. Anyone can join. If you have another race in mind you want to raise the money for, go for it! Otherwise you can join the team, and help raise money without even running a race. Maybe you have a husband/wife, father/mother, brother/sister, etc. benefiting from the Wounded Warrior Project, or you just want to give back to our troops. Sign, up, set a goal, any amount is appreciated, and spread the word to your family, friends, and even local businesses.

We have 2 months to get there, and any help is welcomed! Thanks again for the support!

"Pete" Predrag Dakovic -Goodbye My Friend 8/14/10

2010-08-16T19:16:00.000-07:00

(pics of Pete about 1999-2001) "Pete" Predrag Dakovic Feb. 3, 1979- Aug. 14, 2010

(from top: Pete and my mom; Northwood University graduation 2001 w/ Pete, me,sister Amie; Notre Dame game with brother Ryan, me, Pete, brother Case, sister Amie; Notre Dame Football game Me and Pete, Pete and a best friend "Juke")

AUGUST 28, 2010

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Today another 10.15 loop around the lake. Next week I will start increasing my long runs, because the 2 month count down is on the way! Well something kind of interesting happened on the run...a soft ball was an inch from my head when I ran by a game in progress. My back was turned from the field and so all I saw was the ball falling to the ground as it went right over my head and dropped in front of my feet. Yeah, for being one inch to quick for the ball. And well...I was pulling away from Town Lake and noticed I needed gas (gauge is broken, so I estimate by my mileage). I said out loud, "I need gas." So, at the stop light by the Pflugerville pedestrian bridge and Caesar Chavez my car stalled. Oh yah, and it wasn't pretty... people were honking and some chic couldn't give me enough of her horn. So, I am getting out of the passenger side because it's busy street and I am calling everyone. No one answers on a nice sunny Saturday afternoon. Then after about 5 minutes my knights in shining armor appear. A truck of men hopped out of their truck, pushed my car up a curb on the grass by the trail, and went and got gas for me! Chivalry is alive! While I was waiting 3 other men asked if I needed help, but not one woman...hmmm, where's the sisterly love? In a way, it was a good social experiment. Men help a "damsel" in distress, but my fellow "sister" honked her horn at me until I felt like hiding under the tree. Oh well, issue was resolved painlessly, and I am so grateful those guys went out of their way to help! It made my day.

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AUGUST 25, 2010

I just read a letter from Pete's sister, Ana, to me and let me tell you, it was the most touching email I have ever received. In the middle of the madness with the loss of her brother, she reached out to me to let me know they were all looking at the photo album I gave Pete before he left America. That means a lot to me.

Coincidently, I was just breezing through the Austin Statesman the other day and remember my horoscope reading something like, "take a lot of pictures now, and document this part of your life". Only just a week or so ago, I mentioned to someone to never let go of photos, because you never know when you might want to have a look at them again one day. I know I had more pictures of Ryan, but can't find most of them anymore, and in general, I am horrible with arranging things in boxes. Nowadays, all is digital, so it makes it easier, but there is still that warm feeling I like when paging through a book of photos or opening up a box to a moment in time that might just let a laugh or two slip out from memory of the special occasion.

This evening's run was another energy charged run. I got about 6 miles in, and then shared a chocolate sundae with oreo cookies with Max! Yah, it was as good as it sounds. Little Max has been a trooper. Kindergarten is kicking his butt! He's one pooped out little guy, but told me today, school was awesome because there were so many things to do! Didn't inherit that school enthusiasm from me, that's for sure;) I was too busy day dreaming...

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AUGUST 24, 2010

Today's run was amazing! Thanks, Mother Nature, for chilling out a bit. It went from feeling like 110 outside to less than 100 by the time I hit the trail. Admittedly, there's a new found energy running through me lately as well. Celebrating Pete's life with friends, family, and even strangers has been uplifting for my soul. I have received some very touching emails, and so I wish to keep the pics up for a while longer. I feel like I am running now for Ryan, the troops, and Pete. All of them unconnected, yet connected in some way that makes sense to me. Ryan's dedication to the sport and my love for him as his sister, our troops dedication to our country, and Pete's huge heart that touched the lives of everyone he met. A sluggish summer of training, may start turning into some pretty decent runs, as the temperatures look to ease up a bit beginning in September. There's hope yet that I will get that 20 mile practice run in before the big day!

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AUGUST 22. 2010

Wow, today's 10.15 mile run was HOT! This weekend, Max was with his dad,and because of the emotional week, I slept in today, until 9 a.m. So, the morning run, turned into a lunch time run, and by the time I hit the trail, it was blazing. Thank you 7 Eleven guy for letting me put ice in my water bottle!!!:) My water was almost gone, and really warm by the time I got to Riverside. The ice was instant relief! I want to share some pictures from the past because I heard that many of Pete's family and friends saw the blog and appreciated the story about him. I have a lot of photos, but can only post so many. Pete also had a special woman in his life, before he passed, so I have to be sensitive about the pictures I post. I put the one of my mom and Pete up because my parents understand the loss of a son. I called them the same night I found out from Pete's friend, "Juke", that Pete had passed away, because they were lucky to meet Pete when we drove up for my little brothers' cross-country meet. As you can see, it was hard not to like Pete. My parents wish to give their condolences to Pete's family...from one mom and dad, to another.

All week, I could only think about my Northwood University days, and when I ran for my training, I was sorting out memories in my head, like placing photos in a photo album.
At one time, Pete was like a family member, so it will take some time to get use to the fact he is only here in spirit now.

One thing is for sure, it keeps me in line with appreciating what I have right now. Because you know we can all start to take things for granted from time to time. Max will be in Kindergarten on Monday! I cannot believe how the years have gone by so fast. It seems like now that school is starting, Autumn will soon be right around the corner. This means, the New York City Marathon is approaching too! If you are reading this, please tell everyone about the charity run for our wounded soldiers. I appreciate all the donations. Donate online at http://www.runningforryan.com/ Thanks!!!

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AUGUST 18, 2010

I am told I wear my heart on my sleeve, so I won't pretend that Pete's passing has not been on my mind since the moment I knew he was gone. I ran today with a heavy heart because it's hard to believe that just a couple of months before the NYC Marathon, I think about another person who shared an important part in my life. He was also the same age as Ryan, so both of their young faces will be etched in my memory forever. When Ryan passed, I didn't blog, I didn't really discuss it for two years. But now that I am writing about my journey to the NYC Marathon, writing about Pete comes naturally. Maybe the timing is just climatic as he was young, and we also shared a trip to NYC for Christmas of 2000. It was a road trip from Michigan to New York, and then a friend's house in Baltimore for New Year's. The first and only time we both went up the Empire State Building, and seeing the Twin Towers before the fateful 9/11 date. Maybe I am taking it harder than I normally would because I have been single for a few years, added with the fact that Pete being gone forces my memory to let all the great times flood my brain. I spoke with a girlfriend today about the strangeness of it all. I guess I am a little raw with emotion, because only a couple of months ago he asked how I could manage the fundraising, working, running, and being a mom? I told him, "I have no clue". Sometimes we just decide to do crazy things, and we don't look back. I told him, I was proud of his work with The United Nations, and wished him well with his current relationship and his family. That was the last time I had contact with him.

So, I am trying not to think about how a great young man was lost and I will do like I did with Ryan and think about the good times when I am out on the dirt or the pavement and once again appreciate that LIFE IS PRECIOUS...so go for it, and keep on truckin!

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AUGUST 16, 2010

It's very ironic that on Saturday as a current dating relationship was ending, so was the life of a dear man I was blessed to know while studying at Northwood University in Midland, Michigan. "Pete" Predrag Dakovic died in a car accident on August 14, 2010.

I bumped into Pete while taking a math class. I actually took an earlier class that day because my schedule was messed up, and he happened to be in that particular class. It was a mutual check each other out kind of moment, and the rest is pretty much history. Well, I mean it took a week or so to finally get introduced at a party, and the first thing he said was, "You are that newspaper lady." Yep, that was me. I was on the school paper and often wrote about world issues at the time to include, Serbia and Kosovo. Pete was from a city called Podgorica, the capital of Montenegro, Serbia.

Our first date was interesting, he talked about "man" and "woman" as though he lived in the caveman days. But eventually I gave him a chance and it just took off to become a healthy, fun, magical and exciting relationship during our junior and senior years at Northwood. Pete had a heart of gold, and always surprised me with amazing acts of thoughtfulness, not surpassed by most. At 6'7", Pete was tall, and strong, the center of the basketball team, but he was kind and compassionate and proud of his homeland. An athlete and "A" student, he always made time for us. Later in life, I would often judge men on the "Pete" scale. Though I have had other good relationships since Pete, he did set the bar for what I would eventually want in a long term relationship. We were young. I was 24, he was 21. Eventually, he had to go home, and I went to Australia, and so we parted ways. But the time I had with him was a blessing, and as I deal with a current ended relationship, I will think of Pete for a moment and smile knowing that what he shared with me was something to be treasured forever. It also reminds me that it's not too much to hope for another relationship down the road that will bring me new memories, similar to the way Pete and I enjoyed life back in college.
Pete met my brother Ryan, along with other siblings, as we drove down to Notre Dame to catch our first big college football game. He bonded well with my brothers, especially Case, as they both enjoyed picking on me and instantly acting like they were brothers in real life. I never met Pete's parents, or his 2 sisters. But he spoke highly of them, and we often sent greetings to them in the mail while he lived in the States.

My thoughts to his family and friends, as I cannot imagine the hurt they feel now. But Pete was such an amazing person, and like Ryan, there will be great stories to enjoy about him in the future. Pete was kind enough to reach out to me when Ryan died and continued to encourage me to run the NYC Marathon after the Austin Marathon was completed. Rest in Peace, Dear Pete.

8-10-10

2010-08-10T08:19:00.000-07:00

Wow! So yesterday, I had a really great run. If you can believe that in 100 degree weather, with heat index of 105 plus. I was slowly jogging along and wondering how the run would turn out, being the sun was blazing and already tired from a busy Monday at work. But yah, all of a sudden midway through the run, my head was clear and I didn't focus on the sun or heat, rather just the rhythm of my feet hitting the trail. Even that really hot area crossing the I35 bridge and running along Riverside Dr. didn't bother me as much as usual, and I may have even had a smile on my face as I felt like, wow, this will be the first run in a while where I don't need to stop and rest a minute and let my body cool down. I was getting near the finish, about a quarter of a mile away, and I could hear the breathing of a runner behind me. This triggered me to finish off with a strong semi sprint and in the end, a great sense of accomplishment. It's funny because I was quite elated with the run, but almost instantly wanted to cry. I just felt this sense of peace, and it was like Ryan was there to let me know the training sucks in this heat, but it will be okay in the end. But I didn't bust out in tears, instead just smiled to myself and happy that my mental focus got me through a grueling run. My running times are a lot slower than the winter training I did for the Austin Marathon. But, I am okay with that now, just knowing I need to truck along enough to make it pass the finish line for the NYC Marathon. Max comes home tomorrow from summer vacation with his dad, so I plan on hanging out in Austin for the evening, grab some grub, maybe listen to some music somewhere. Max starts kindergarten in 2 weeks! I cannot believe how fast time flys. Less than 3 months from NYC...momentum is building!

I just want to throw it out there that if you are already registered to run the ING NYC Marathon on November 7, 2010 and want to help raise money for a great cause, please email me at
runningforryan@gmail.com

Anyone is welcome to join the team, and you can choose your own goal amount. It's quite easy to join, just let me know!

THANKS!

THE SONG OF THE DAY IS...

2010-08-02T19:37:00.000-07:00

Oh, Today it was definitely, Journey's, "Don't Stop Believin". It was actually quite fitting, because today was an odd running day. It was 100 plus degrees on the trail today, and mentally I was like, "Hmmm, don't know how this run is going to go, maybe I will just trudge along". But man, when I think about Ryan, I get in a daze(a can-do attitude!), and just pound away, not even realizing I just made it up a hill without pausing for a second in the brutal heat.
It's also fitting that it was the last song to play on my IPod today, because it helped me finish the last quarter mile hard. Journey is probably my favorite band of all time, and this weekend I got to watch some very old Journey videos/live performances with another huge Journey fan for the first time. And... well... if you ever want to see the cheesiet video ever made, check out "Separate Ways". On the otherhand, "Faithfully" was such a great video and still one of my favorite love songs of all time.
Anyway...just a little random chat about my favorite group.
To top off the great run, I was rehydrating at the water station after the run and some random runner hollered at me, "Man you smoked me the entire way...I was trying to keep up but couldn't" Surprised, I didn't even notice. I was actually kind of shocked, because, yes it was a male, and most guys never have trouble passing me on the trail. But I do know what he means. I too focus on someone ahead of me, and often make it a goal to either stay right at his/her pace, or pass them just to keep a steady pace going. Though, haven't done that much this summer. I always seem to be the one getting passed as I bite my teeth and sweat my way to the finish.

Now, I am in full adrenaline mode, especially after hearing the interview on http://www.purefitradio.com/
I got to talk about Ryan and the Wounded Warrior Project in a way that just made me feel good about this challenge. Bart and Chuck were super sweet, and really Bart Yasso has been a great supporter for the cause ever since we met at the Austin Marathon.

So with this extra dose of adrenaline running in my veins right now, I just want to keep asking anyone reading this to PLEASE spread the word. We need to get $10,000 or so in 3 months. Please help me get this money for our brave and dear veterans.

If you need a little extra motivation, go to http://www.melissastockwell.com/ Melissa is actually the amputee veteran pictured in the photo above on Running For Ryan. I was following the Wounded Warrior Project on Facebook before I ever knew I would start to raise money for the cause, when this picture popped up on a Facebook posting, and that was when I decided to run for Ryan and our soldiers. Melissa Stockwell is an awesome veteran and a great athlete who always seems to smile and keep very positive outlook in life. Along with Ryan, she is definitely a huge motivation to keep 0n running. I have never met her, but you don't need to know someone personally to feel inspired. You just have to know her spirit. Check out her website, the Wounded Warrior Project sponsors her. She's amazing!

GETTING BACK ON TRACK 7-29-10

2010-07-29T08:50:00.000-07:00

(above pic, just emailed to me from David Monti, awesome pic of Ry smiling! Thanks for sharing, David)

Hi there blog. It's been a couple of weeks, but recently mentally re-focused again to start rounding out the last few months of this training and fundraising. I have a couple of amazing runs lately. I got in a great mid distance run on Tuesday, and an awesome tempo run yesterday as the temperature dropped a few degrees in the overcast weather. It's been a roller coaster of a summer, but Ryan's spirit has seeped back into my running workouts, and it's actually been very helpful during the tough moments on the trail when I feel like stopping or even slowing down to a minimal jog. I am starting to visualize the finish line in NYC right now, like I did when I started getting geared up for the Austin Marathon last Valentine's Day. Personally, a few rough patches here and there, but nothing that won't work itself out in the end. It's amazing how training for a previous race can be totally opposite for another race. Undoubtedly, I will feel so much happiness, relief, and satisfaction with the ING NYC Marathon. When I visited Central Park a few times after Ryan's death, near "the rock" in Central Park, the sunlight always seemed to illuminate through the trees and shine down, just enough to feel him looking down on the city. I hope to write more is the training will start to pick up, and fundraising becomes very important in the final days. I continue to feel lucky to have this chance to keep Ryan's memory alive and give back to our troops. My best bud just headed back overseas today, and I found out someone else dear to me will go over for a 2nd tour very shortly. As usual, the realness of their service, and of all our men and women over there is what helps me truck along with Running For Ryan. Thanks for helping spread the word.

A SMALL WORLD

2010-07-21T11:26:00.000-07:00

So, a couple of weeks ago I had a message from a guy named Ryan to see a condo we manage in the Austin area. It was the first day back after returning from Michigan, so my desk was swamped, and my energy limited, but I made the appointment to show this unit and the funniest thing happened. Actually, I would consider it a fateful thing.

I showed the two guys the place, they liked it, and so I started the small talk of, "So, what do you do in Austin". Mark told me he was in computer software, or something like that, and Ryan said he helped train professional runners. I was like, "cool, my brother was a professional runner, Ryan Shay." Both of them kind of dropped their jaws, and said, "You are Ryan's sister"? Then they said in unison, "We are Flotrack"(http://www.flotrack.org/) . I was like, get out of town, huh, what a small world. So, we got to talking about Ryan and my younger brother Stephan, and pretty much how funny it was for me to bump into them, neither of us knowing each other, but connected through the common interest of running.

We finished chatted, they got the place, and a couple of weeks later, I got a nice email from Mark about meeting up soon for an interview regarding Running For Ryan. So, I look forward to the opportunity as funds need to start coming in now as we are nearing 3 months before race day. (By the way, I asked Mark if I could bring this story up---as I am not usually one to discuss our clients, but this was a unique encounter indeed).

Well, going to get a 7/8 mile run in later on, and Max comes back, after vacationing with his dad the last 2 weeks, so looking forward to a lot of hugs and kisses this evening from my little man!

JULY 17, 2010

2010-07-16T23:40:00.000-07:00

("T" (left), and me)

Ahh, I feel somewhat better now that I have some medication for my 2 week cough that turned out be be Bronchitis. I am going to knock this madness out with some antibiotics and hopefully be on the way to a full recovery in a couple of weeks. I did get in a 4 mile run today, very slow pace, but manageable. Came home, laid on the couch, and started my antibiotics and cough medicine that wiped me out for a bit. Now I am pretty much wide awake in the middle of the night, but hopefully writing a little bit will get me tired again.
I still plan on running while getting through this upper respiratory infection, but I will allow my body to decide how far and how strong.
Got some great news recently that my best bud who is currently serving overseas is on R & R for a couple of weeks and she's going to pop into Austin and hang out with me for a day before heading back home and flying back overseas. It was quite a surprise, but I love her for taking the time to visit, even though it's only for 24 hours. Her friendship to me is unlike any other, and well, I am sure we will have some nice long chats about my current dating situation and her on going sagas as well. I mean what's better than grabbing some good food, maybe some good chocolate and shooting the breeze with a woman I admire so much for her service to the U.S.
The visit is a great boost for my spirit and I hope for hers as well. Okay, now I am getting to the point of maybe catching some zzzzzzzz again. I will attempt a long run around the lake tomorrow and going to bake some banana bread with the rotten bananas on my kitchen counter tomorrow. I have been know to bake some killer banana bread. :)

JULY 15, 2010

2010-07-15T18:19:00.000-07:00

Yesterday morning I had the great opportunity to chat with Bart Yasso and Chuck Engle for a Purefit Radio interview. This lead to meeting some ladies of a great online apparel store, http://www.runningskirts.com/. Check them out, as they have befriended me, and may just be able to help out a bunch in the near future for Running For Ryan.

It's been about 10 months since I first started blogging for Running For Ryan, and in between the hustle and bustle of being a mom, working, running, and trying to get the word out for donations, I managed to squeeze in some dating. I must admit, I am pretty awful at it, but it wasn't until recently that I met someone I find interesting and well, the first man I have known for more than a couple of dates since my marriage ended 3.5 years ago. But unfortunately, I may still have a bit to go before I know just how to ease into another relationship. I think I pretty much blew this chance, because I still have a hard time communicating what's important to me in a partnership because I am afraid I am not going to like the results/answers I may receive in return. I guess I am not at that level of confidence I need to be, so I will keep on trucking and trying. I am not saying this guy has run away, saying, "get me out of here", let's hope another chance at getting to know each other is in the works, but like running....the more I get out there and do it...the easier it gets.

I have been on day 10 of a nasty persistent cough, but managed to get some good runs in earlier in the week. Looking forward to an easy run tomorrow evening as I gather up energy for a 10-12 miler on Saturday.

Watching Forest Gump (on VHS!) as I check emails/blog and I cannot believe how time has gone by. The movie was filmed in 1995, but the love story is always still great to watch between Forest and Jenny(Forest never giving up, yeah!) , and the resilience of Gary Sinise's character as the amputated Lt. Dan always makes me think of our troops, past and present. It's time to get rolling and pump of the energy for remaining training months. I pray good things come our way for Running For Ryan, and we get this goal met. If you are reading, keep spreading the word, and make a donation---any amount is appreciated!!!

JULY 13, 2010

2010-07-13T10:24:00.000-07:00

(Ryan Shay mid-summer night run shirt and medal for July 4, 2010 race in Central Lake, Mi. I ran it in 59:34, going for a 10 min pace, so ok with the time :))

I really enjoyed my time going back home. As I mentioned, it was the first time I had been back since Ryan's funeral. Yah, I know almost 3 years, but with moving from Michigan, to Maryland, and now Austin, it was a busy 3 years. One thing I realized though, was I don't want to go 3 years without a vacation again. I don't mean to say this in a spoiled sounding way, but with the divorce and the death, I was a non-stop working machine, focused on supporting my son and myself, trying to make ends meet, and build on some kind of stable future. But I realized along the way, everyone needs a break! Whatever your budget is, get out and live a little! Before I headed to Michigan, I was having Lupus flare ups, for a few weeks, and I caught something towards the end of my vacation, because I have been hacking and coughing for a week now, so I think my body is telling me to slow down. So, I took a little vacation from my vacation and did nothing this weekend expect spend it with great company and some pretty great running days despite the heat.
I am starting to come to the crucial months of this fundraiser. Due to being kind of worn down the last few weeks, I couldn't put too much time into this challenge. But yesterday my 7 mile run was different. It was like the running I used to do for the Austin Marathon challenge. I was energized mentally, which made the physical challenge of coughing and feeling a little weak feel alright. Sometimes I wish I didn't open my big mouth about doing a fall marathon. I really think I was even a little crazy to think I could train in this heat for the NYC Marathon, but when you make a promise to a cause dear to your heart, there really is no excuse to quit. My brother would never quit at anything, and it wouldn't honor him to put up my shoes now. I am very lucky to have made the trip home, as it reconnected me to loved ones, and to Ryan's spirit. I was a little homesick when I returned to Austin for the first couple of days, but Austin has become my home, and I will continue to kick up dirt around the trail and hope that I can reach out to those who also feel our troops need our support. I am almost certain this will be my last marathon challenge in Ryan's memory for the Wounded Warrior Project. If you are reading this, I TRULY appreciate helping spreading the word and donating any amount you can. Thank you!

JULY 1, 2010---Hometown Visit

2010-07-01T22:25:00.000-07:00

(Ryan Shay Run banner)

(Me and bro Nate, who gave me courage to not worry about Lupus marks in photos anymore!)

It's ridiculously late, but felt like writing a little before I finally close my eyes. I arrived in Chicago yesterday and spent the night at my brother's house. It was a great night of catching up and finally seeing him again after so long. What I love about my siblings is that we can go several months, maybe even a year or more without seeing each other, but it's always like old times. Last night was one of those special times when we bonded after Max finally crashed for the night, discussing, who would have guessed, relationships! It was pretty good chat and kept us up a couple of hours, which allowed for a late start up to Northern Michigan. But without an agenda, Max and I got up here at a decent time and enjoyed an awesome dinner at the Blue Pelican, a local place in Central Lake ,with my parents.

Before the dinner, I put my running shoes on and hit the country roads for an amazing 5 mile run. It's soooooo cold up here compared to Austin right now that I am in running heaven! The tempo run felt great and there weren't any strong UV rays tearing into my face. One thing about this trip is that I hope to calm the Lupus flare up a little and enjoy the pleasant weather before heading back to Austin.

On the way into town I saw the Ryan Shay race banner for the first time, and it took my breath away. Sadness, mixed with inspiration, as I cannot help but feel him everywhere I turn while I am at home right now. I kept picturing him running toward me on my run, as I know he pounded the same pavement hundreds of times while visiting my parents over the past few years before he passed away.

As I was helping my mom prepare a little for the race this evening, she told me she had an amazing dream about Ryan a few days ago, dressed in fatigues and an absolute positive vibe came between her and him in the dream. My mom didn't get why he was dressed in camouflage, but, I will take it as a sign to keep on trucking with this challenge and get the monetary goal met for our wounded soldiers.

It's almost 4th of July, and while it seems many are frustrated with America lately, let's never forget how much more difficult our severely wounded veterans have if there were no funded organizations, like the Wounded Warrior Project to help meet some or several of their needs.

Please continue to spread the word to family and friends and businesses. Thanks!

SUNBLOCK FROM SCAPE

2010-06-28T14:22:00.000-07:00

A week or so ago, I wrote about this sunblock I discovered that has really helped with my training in the hot Texas summer weather. Well, SCAPE labs was kind enough to send me some more product and I just wanted to write about how I appreciate the kind gift.
Their kind donation helps with my training, and in return helps me keep running to raise money for our wounded veterans. So, in return, they are giving back as well. Anyone who helps me in anyway is also helping our troops! I appreciate all the support I get, via product donation or financial contributions to the cause.

I love this product because SCAPE has developed a sunblock that does not come off! I sweat like crazy in 95 plus degree weather in Austin during the summer. When I get over heated in my long runs, the sunblock remains on my skin even while sweating and dousing my head with water.

The scent is a hint of lemon, and when you apply it to your skin it does not leave your skin greasy and slimy feeling. As mentioned in previous blogs, I do have Lupus, and sun can really be an enemy, especially in the summer when UV rays are stronger. Before heading out on, I apply from head to toe with the sunblock, Face Stick, and lip balm and at the completion of a run I still feel confidently covered with SPF protection.

Before my Lupus diagnosis, I never thought too much on sun protection, but now that I found one that works with training in the intense heat, I want others to know about it too!

Check out SCAPElabs.com for more product information.

Today is another one of those days when I will need it! High 90's and about to hit the road soon for an afternoon run.

IT WAS BOUND TO HAPPEN

2010-06-22T07:50:00.000-07:00

(2nd annual Ryan Shay Mid Summer's Night Run, Central Lake, MI July 4, 2010, register at www.ryanshay.org) Proceeds donated to local high school for college scholarships.

It's Tuesday, and I am laying on the sofa with a pillow behind my back and blanket over my legs. I had to call in today, as I just had that feeling of, "oh, I need to rest right now". I just got carried away with running dehydrated, stressing about work, and being too busy to breathe. My ears are ringing and my eyes hurt, but after this little write-up, going to sleep for awhile and let my body catch up with me.

No fear, my boss knows, and I cannot remember the last time I called in sick anyway.

Everyone has those moments when they feel just slightly off enough to know when to slow down, and so I am doing that today. If I feel better, I might even do a slow jog in the evening.

The good news is this summer is way more approachable than last summer! Now that Max's dad is back from deployment, Max enjoys catching up with him and it gives me some free time to explore Austin more. I have started getting back into a social scene and it has boosted my confidence in terms of being new to this city. Going home to Michigan in a week will allow me to catch up with family again, but I have to say Austin is growing on me more and more. It's definitely a place to meet some very interesting people.

Before I head home, I will be interviewing with Chris Sanchez of Inside Austin a weekend radio show. I am not sure when it will air, probably weekend after this. I hope to generate some funds back home, and when I get back to Austin really need to get back in fundraiser mode and see about getting this goal met. One thing about me, is if I say I am going to do something, I want to make sure I go all the way with it.

Now I am going to sleep for a bit and rest my tired body.

THE STICKIEST DAY FOR ME YET

2010-06-17T19:35:00.000-07:00

(In effort to try and take more photos while blogging, Me after my most humid run yet, and favorite essential items that get me through the hot runs)

Oh Austin how I love it when you rain in hot temperatures, like today. It rained about an hour before my run and so the entire run was like running in a hot shower. But surprisingly my 7 mile run time was not too bad, even faster than the last one.
Schedule is very crazy these days because work is very busy and I am so tired before I slip my running shoes on, and wish so badly I was able to run in the morning. But I am getting used to it slowly, and when it does drop 5 or 10 degrees it is an instant relief on the trail.

Over the past 9 months I am learning different ways to comfort myself during the training. Winter season was a cinch because the sun was less intense and my Lupus was minimal in terms of creeping around. But with the sun and heat come challenges. A couple of things that help me cope below:

First off, I finally bought some new shoes, first pair since January. Shoes are expensive, and just dropped $500 into my car last week, but had to bite the bullet, for my feet's sake and get a new pair. I like to recommend what works for me, and I have kind of flat feet and it's hard to find a good match, but the Adidas Super Nova Glide II are awesome, the only running shoe that has ever fit my foot like a glove. If you are flat footed, do try on a pair.

Because my face gets affected by the sun when I have Lupus flare ups, bumped into the best sunscreen for anyone sweating it out in Austin or anywhere hot or by the water. It smells awesome, and it stays on and does NOT burn your eyes. It's from Hawaiian Island Creations, and it's in a yellow tube and is SPF 50 2X Sunblock. I pour on the sunscreen from head to to toe before the run.

I have felt a little queasy around the half way point of my runs lately, but decided to grab a 20 oz of Gatorade and slam shortly before I start running (even chill it in the freezer at work for a bit, so it's slightly slushy) and it has helped greatly with energy and and only needing water along my run. It makes me feel cooler for awhile too.

I bought a new hat and some new shorts. I have been wearing a regular ball cap to shield the sun, but makes my head overheat, so bought a running hat, and some light dry-fit shorts, big difference on feeling lighter and cooler.

I continue to use regular over-the-head headphones when I run because they are large enough to cover my ears and help prevent Lupus inflammation (which can hurt inside the ear area) by keeping the sun off.

So, with all this preparation, I have felt all right in the sun, and though I complain of the heat, I am relieved that I am still able to train without too much difficulty heading into the harshest part of the summer.

I cannot wait to go home and visit in a couple of weeks. I have not been to Michigan since Ryan's funeral. It will be strange, a little, maybe, but look forward to seeing my family and watching them sweat in 70 degree weather while I put a sweater on! Ha!

2nd Annual Ryan Shay Mid Summer Night Run

2010-06-09T19:20:00.000-07:00

In a few weeks(4th of July) I will head to Michigan for the 2nd annual 5 and 10k put on in my brother's memory in the town I graduated high school. I pretty much left Central Lake when I finished high school, and have returned less than a handful of times over the passed 15 years. I definitely had the restless soul out of the 8 of us at that time and besides going to college I scraped pennies to fly here and there in and out of the country for a good several years. I missed a lot of Ryan's post collegiate runs because of the traveling adventures, but always kept up with his races through the inter net. He would even email his running schedules to us (just in case we were in the neighborhood during a race). But Ryan would go back to Central Lake and continue to run the back roads of Northern Michigan and visit our old high school, and hang out from time to time. So, it's definitely fitting to have a run in his memory started in our home town. Proceeds from the race go to our local high school for college scholarships. I asked my father if I could do some kind of donation booth for Running For Ryan, and I believe we will have a table set up for anyone who has a few dollars or a check book handy to give to the Wounded Warrior Project, so if you happen to read this and live in Michigan and will be at the race, please spread the word.

We are at about $14,600 right now of $26,200 goal. I have not had an opportunity to have some kind of benefit gig in Austin yet, but would love to do something before the NYC Marathon to get a boost in donations. If you are a business or individual with an idea, and or resources, please contact me at runningforryan@gmail.com

Please remember donating online is very easy and safe. I continue to donate on line when I have a few extra dollars and the payment system is very secure. Just click on DONATE icon, and click on my name and it takes you through the steps.

Checks can be made to Wounded Warrior Project or Running For Ryan and mailed to

Running For Ryan

P.O. Box 300766

Austin, TX 78703

As I mentioned yesterday, it was a pleasure to meet Doug Ulman, CEO of LIVESTRONG at the Austin Marathon/LIVESTRONG meeting. Since living in Austin, I have been very lucky to meet such inspirational people like Doug Ulman, Dick Beardsley, and Bart Yasso. I was hesitant to pack up and move down here without family and without a circle of friends, but it's a great city with a lot of great organizations to take an interest in and give back to. Just as these above names are familiar, just as many without such known names have been very inspirational to me, especially everyone who helped with the entire Austin Marathon journey. My head has been very focused for a few days, and I continue to visualize the finish line in NYC. Max told me I had to win this time (ha ha) so better get working on a mock trophy for his dresser.

Meeting A Survivor, Doug Ulman, CEO of LIVESTRONG

2010-06-08T17:52:00.000-07:00

(Doug Ulman, CEO of LIVESTRONG)

I have been really blessed to meet some great people in Austin. Joey Trimyer made Running For Ryan web site free of charge and continues to maintain it for me as a volunteer. When a coach in San Antonio, Gary Brimmer, introduced me to John Conley (Austin Marathon Director) I didn't realize how much help I would get for getting Running For Ryan off the ground. . Through an Austin Marathon event, I met Bart Yasso, who befriended me so genuinely as we share the desire to run, him with Lyme Disease, me with Lupus. Bart has helped spread the word about the fundraiser and continues to encourage me to see it through to NYC. John Conley invited me to LIVESTRONG/ Austin Marathon announcement event today at the LIVESTRONG HQ in Austin. Because it was in the middle of the work day I almost didn't go, but so glad I did!

I remember reading about Doug Ulman in the Austin Monthly Magazine when I was waiting at an appointment. The magazine was covering non-profit CEO's and he was the lead feature. So, I read his article and was thinking to myself how amazing it was to be a survivor and then go right into running a huge cancer non-profit organization. I had no clue of his life, and his cancer fight, so I sent an email of congratulating him on taking a serious situation and turning it into an inspirational journey.

He responded with a nice thank you email, and that was it. So several weeks go by, and I get this invite to go to the announcement event today. Doug Ulman and John Conley present, with Mayor Leffingwell. Well, I thought it would be pretty interesting to see these guys talk, so I decided to see what the big news was going to be. Well, turns out the Austin Marathon will be sponsored by LIVESTRONG for the next 3 years, yeah for both organizations!

So, I was going to head back to work, but I decided, I wanted to introduce myself, and palms sweaty did just that. I told him I was Sarah Shay, I sent an email about your article a while back,and he pleasantly spoke to me, and said he was in New York the weekend Ryan passed away, as he ran the regular marathon the following day. After we chatted for a couple of minutes, I decided to head back to work. But as I was outside I turned around and told myself, "Go get a pic for the blog...he's a nice guy!" So, palms sweaty again, he politely took a pic with me and welcomed me to HQ anytime:)

This positive energy carried through out the day and I had an enjoyable 6 mile run after work. About a mile from the finish I just busted out in a good cry as I couldn't help but just look to the sky for Ryan. I instantly missed him, but thanked him for giving me the courage to go out and meet inspiring individuals through out this journey to keep his memory alive and give back to those who survive daily with life altering injuries. I just feel very lucky right now. I feel like I am doing what I am suppose to be doing at this moment in my life. Thanks to Doug for the sincere introduction.

NOTHING ABOUT RUNNING TODAY, June 6, 2010

2010-06-06T18:23:00.000-07:00

Had the urge to clean my place today before I headed out to run, so pretty late getting on Town Lake, about noon, and had the audacity to try and run 10 miles, not realizing it was 96 out. I lost all energy 6 miles out, and walked 4 miles back to my car, it sucked. So, I learned a home can be cleaned anytime, but I really have to get my long runs in way early on the weekends. So, enough on running because today I was not happy about it.

But my weekend was relaxing, a little quiet without Max around and had zero plans, so really a time to catch up on sleep and run some errands.

Friday, after work I was lucky enough to meet with Richard West, who co-founded Texas Monthly Magazine and freelances for Runner's World. I am told the story about how Running For Ryan got started will be in a fall issue of Runner's World to coincide with the NYC Marathon. We met at the Tavern near 12th and Lamar in Austin, and it was a pleasure to meet him. He actually kind of reminds me of Bart Yasso a bit. He was very kind and I felt comfortable with the chat. I was shocked to hear that he read all my blogs since September of 2009 as I don't think I could ever go back and read them all in one shot! Also, I might realize...what the heck was I thinking?

I dream a lot! I told Richard of the tornado dreams I had a week prior to Ryan passing away, and on the morning of his death a tornado dream woke me up with a startle shortly before I got the call that fateful morning. The dream of him pushing me to the finish is what gave me the motivation to run a marathon...and maybe a little foreshadowing came from the dream I had shortly before the Austin Marathon where Ryan and I ran the NYC Marathon together. Little did I know then or even fathom that I would actually run it in 2010.

I had a personal dream this morning about my ex. It was one of those dreams that make you wake up and feel weird for the first part of the day. Very funny how dreams can be so off too. This dream was whimsical, fluffy and fun as we took Max and rode off in the sunset together. But in realty, and far away from the dream he could be moving on to another marriage when I am terrified of taking that step again. Yes, I admit it on this keyboard and screen, that it boggles my mind that he could be so sure when he wasn't sure the first time. I was sure the first time, and now I am not sure for a second time. Oh, just another thing that I guess will makes sense to me when the time is right.

Scared, yes but still a hopeless romantic. I do enjoy the anticipation of feeling those sparks again! But for now, let me dream about Jake Gyllenhaal or reaching that $26,200 goal!

M E M O R I A L D A Y, May 31, 2010

2010-05-31T19:53:00.000-07:00

I didn't head down to San Antonio as planned. First off, my car was in the shop on Friday, and I wasn't sure about taking it out of town on such a long and busy traffic weekend. But it seems okay. Secondly, my hostess was still moving into her new place with her son, so she was a busy mom this weekend. So, I stayed in Austin and Max and I headed to Lake Travis for the first time. Wow, the water was perfectly warm, though not sure if I went to the best place just because it was rocky and wavy. But really no complaints as we enjoyed a good half day in the water.

Today I told Max we were going to head to a place where they say "Thank you" to soldiers who were brave and died for their service. I am pretty sure his dad being a soldier made it pretty easy to understand and we headed to the American Legion Post in Austin on Veterans Drive.

As soon as we arrived, presentations were being made, and I instantly started to shed tears. While I do think about our soldiers past and present, my brother was on my mind. I have always admired men and women in uniform, but even as an ex-wife to a soldier, I don't think I gave back to the military as much as I should have. So, with my brother's passing, came this challenge, and that's why I was thinking about him during the Memorial Day events today. Doubt was creeping back in a little bit over the past few days, because training is miserable in the Texas heat, but I truck through, even with slower running times, but 10 miles has been the most I can bare for now. I mean, I know I will be in NYC in November, and I will run, but my running confidence has lessen with summer training versus winter training. But the Lupus is doing okay. Inflammation to my face has cleared up a lot but my eyes are dried out now. Due to lack of producing tears, using drops frequently through out the day, but my joints are good, and I continue to feel like I am managing it quite well. So with that good bit of news, I focus ahead, and think about the thousands of wounded who have physical and emotional wounds far exceeding anything that I have to deal with.

It was a great time at the American Legion. Max sat next to me and listened to Mayor Leffingwell give a speech, and a couple of other veterans from years ago. The great part about Memorial Day/4th of July/and Veteran's Day events is seeing those who have served from so long ago encouraging and supporting soldier's of today. Some old planes flew over, and Max sat with me a bit to hear some music, then his favorite part came, brownies and ice cream.:) It was pretty hot today, 95 degrees, and so after a couple of hours we headed home, and as we left Max said, "Mama, I want to go there again." So, as a mother, it felt good to have him interested in an event on Memorial Day. Even if he doesn't understand all of it, I know he will want to go next year, and hopefully incorporate the act of showing appreciation to servicemen and women throughout his lifetime.

Today I give my appreciation to all those who have lost their lives for us. For some families the loss and pain is still very new, and my heart goes out to you. Bless you all.

A special shout out to my best friend in Iraq right now. "T" we all love you, and can't wait to see you back home soon. Love ya.

Merciful Weather, May 25, 2010

2010-05-25T17:28:00.000-07:00

It's amazing what a little drop in temperature will do to make a run seems fantastic! Did my usual 7 mile loop around the lake and felt awesome tonight. Trying to keep the 30-40 miles a week base going until the final 3 three month before NYC Marathon. Won't be doing any 20 mile long runs before August, that's for sure!

As I was on the trail today, I was pretty mellow, thoughts wandering toward the fundraiser. It's definitely more of a challenge this time around. So, I was brainwashing for some ways I can generate money in order to make goal of $26,200. I am going to start working on the plans. and cross my fingers that something becomes of the ideas. I felt great stuffing envelopes all weekend and sending those mail requests out, but as I learned from the last marathon about 1 in a handful respond, so I am going to try and do some local things to help raise the funds.

Going to make this short before Max gets home, and grill some chicken I have marinating in a mystery marinade I just made up last minute...should be interesting!

I feel really good after this last run and just want to enjoy the endorphin high I am on right now and hope it carries through in future workouts this week!

Favorite song of the day on my IPod was once again, Radar Love...it gets my adrenaline kickin everytime!

MAY 23, 2010

2010-05-23T20:18:00.000-07:00

Austin really is a pretty unique city with Town Lake in the middle of it all and ample spots for hiking and biking and jogging. If I wasn't running to keep my base miles in tack before the harder training at the end of the summer, I would even be used to the heat. Today's 10 mile attempt kicked my butt! I was so hot and dehydrated after 8 miles, I stopped and walked the last 2. It's only in the 90's so it going to be super interesting to see how I will get a 20 mile long run in this season when the temps peak at 100 plus!

I am going to San Antonio for Memorial Weekend, I decided. Last year, as I mentioned before, Max and I headed to Ft. Hood around this time last year (I think the weekend before Memorial Weekend). Five months had passed since his dad deployed and he really enjoyed seeing all the guys in uniform... I guess it confirmed to him that his dad's absence was for a valid reason, because all these men and women were about to deploy soon too.

So, going to check out my friend's new place and show support in San Antonio this year on Memorial Day. It was actually a pretty low key weekend and I am going to sign out this time around without carrying on and on like usual.

If you are reading this, thanks! Please continue to spread the word about donating. I need to average abut $2,000 a month to reach the goal for NYC Marathon. I appreciate all the support and wish you well!

M A Y

2010-05-07T20:51:00.000-07:00

(I almost took off the Looney Bean Coffee sticker off a few years ago to make the computer less cluttered, but I am glad I didn't, as it represents Mammoth, CA where he lived and trained)

May 21, 2010

Ok, so I made it through a pretty hot week of running. Well hot anyway for this Michigan girl. With the sun blazing, it was in low 90's but felt close to 100 when running. I have to run after work because it's the only time I have available for help with watching Max while I get the hour or so of running in during the week. So, it's going to get pretty tricky when we are in 100 degree weather for the next few months. The good news is my most critical months will be August - October, and temps drop in September. The great thing about not being an elite runner, I don't have to focus too much on time, but rather finishing. However, of course a part of me would love to break 4:30 and maybe get near 4:15 this time around. I can only hope for the best, and more importantly manage any inflammation that will pop when my body is running ragged.

It's Friday night, after midnight, and I am restless. I have a bunch of envelopes to be addressed for donation requests that I want to get out in the mail tomorrow, but I always get a little more restless when it's Max's dad's weekend time. I go through a little withdraw of not having a cute and cuddly kid running around to keep me on my toes. It is a good time to get better running in though, and focus on mail outs for donation requests. This time around is definitely harder as I have begged everyone I know to donate already for the previous marathon. So, I am thinking of fundraiser ideas and mailing VFW posts and businesses I feel will be happy to make a donation.

Admit tingly I also viewed videos of Ryan tonight on You Tube as a few of them were made by my brother Case and they just have so much meaning to them and of course I am crying, but I also just like to see Ryan's beautiful face and remember the last time I hung out with him and Alicia in Flagstaff and wishing I would have taken more pics together.

If you have had a loved one pass away, you may understand what I mean when I say, "he always comes to me when I need it". There is no way on Earth I would ever in a million years be running in freaking hot Texas weather on my own will. I have this desire to honor his name after saying I would run to raise $26,200 for WWP. And as cheesy or emotional as it may sound, I really love our troops, second to my son. Sometimes I joke about not having luck in dating, or holding my breath for when my car finally drives it's last mile, but all that really seems so trivial compared to knowing we still live a cushy life while men and women are still over there. A little story about Ryan...as I was getting out of the Army and pretty much unemployed and with a few bucks, a laptop arrived at my front door in California. He sent his Apple IBook to me and told me he was upgrading anyway and I should have it. The computer stopped working a couple of years ago, but I still have that Mac and I will never get rid of it. He supported me when I needed it, and I am taking that feeling of his kind gesture and giving it back to men and women fulfilling an obligation that I didn't finish. It's almost Memorial Weekend, please keep our servicemen and women in your thoughts and prayers, if you pray.

May 18, 2010

Support and Love

Sunday was a great run day! I ran my longest run since Austin Marathon, 10 miles around Town Lake. The heat was do-able and I felt awesome as I crossed the pedestrian bridge to finish. Then, Monday afternoon I was greeted with some emails from well wishers finding out about this challenge through Runner's World face book page. Thank you so much for your support! The great thing about running is that it can introduce you to so many people around the world who feel connected because for whatever the reason, running has been his/her outlet for whatever may be going on individually. A special thanks to a woman who wrote to tell me about her brother who died in Iraq two years ago, but who also followed Ryan's story as a runner, and offered kind words of support. Reaching out to show support is not always easy and I appreciate your email. Looks to be a pretty good day for a run after work, and I will use all this positive energy to get through another hot and sweaty work out. Please continue to spread the word, and give if you can, no amount is too little, and every donation is greatly appreciated!

May 12, 2010
Bart Yasso

On February 13, 2010, I bumped into Bart Yasso at the Austin Marathon Dinner the night before the race. I saw him wearing a Runner's World jacket, and he looked kind of familiar but really didn't know who he was. He graciously introduced himself to me, and I said something like..."So you work for Runner's World?" He kind of grinned, and said, yes, for about 25 years now. I was thinking, oh boy, I am an idiot. But he did not make me feel like one. The truth is I didn't know who Ryan Hall was either a few years back. He was at my brother Ryan's wedding, and didn't even know it. I guess I was too busy keeping Max out of the dirt (the only kid rolling in the dirt with his bow tie and cumber bun destroyed). I also didn't know who Ryan was when he entered our hotel room with his wife, Sara, to give condolences while I was in NYC with my family. I didn't know who Amby Burfoot was when I poured my heart out about Ryan for a Runner's World spread about his life and death. But all of a sudden I felt uncomfortable with the interview. What is he doing? Am I saying too much? Will they tell the world how much I love him, or do they want any kind of dirt I can scoop? In the end, I was kind of bitter with Amby. I really didn't have a reason to be. But it was so close to the time he passed away that I felt raw with emotion, and regretted talking about anything. It was the first and last time I spoke about Ryan until 2 years later when I started running in his memory.
I am not the only one who slipped away from the weirdness of it all. We all did. Personally my divorce was right in the middle of it all, and that's when I just went away. My mind went numb and I felt hidden away from the world.
So, when I decided to run and start Running For Ryan it was due to a switch that just went on in my head. I have no regrets, as it as healed a lot of my emotional wounds, and it brought me in contact with an awesome community in Austin. A community that reached out and helped make my first Marathon an extraordinary experience.
Back to Bart. As I said, I didn't know who he was, but he was so gracious. After the race, he came up to me and said, "It was cool to see you finish the race", and we chatted for a bit as I could not stop from crying from all the emotion gushing out from months of anticipation and Ryan's spirit hovering over my head. Shortly after the run, Bart emailed me to let me know what an inspiration I was. I kind of stared blankly at the screen because I honestly did not think of myself that way. Here's Sarah's thoughts: "I should have run faster, I should have been skinnier, I should have done it this way, I should have done it that way, and so on..." Bart was encouraging, and he hoped I would do another race. So, when I mentioned the NYC Marathon he emailed me once again to tell me how awesome that would be. All this time had passed since the Austin Marathon, and I still didn't know too much about Bart. So today, I finally learned he has lived with Lyme Disease for quite some time. Suffering physically, but you would never know it. As someone who was just diagnosed with Lupus last year, I felt an instance connection. This disease is new to me, but I just kind of shake it off, as I have to in order to keep up with doing what I have to and want to do. But knowing Bart is about to embark on a great journey while heading to the 2010 Comrades Marathon in South Africa gives me a new found motivation to keep going with my running. I mean I only have one under my belt, and I am trying for a second. This is chop liver for a pro like Bart, but he wouldn't let you feel that way. Since becoming my friend, he has made me feel like I can run to the highest mountain and back if I wanted to. So, Bart, I hope you have the greatest time of your life while completing a race you have always wanted to complete and I hope you continue to encourage and inspire all those fortunate enough to "run" into you!

May 7, 2010
Memorial Weekend

Whew, as far as weeks go this past one was a little on the not so fun side, but got through it and I continue to keep trucking along. Started the week off with Ryan's birthday on the 4th, and though it was less emotional than the very first one with out him, I did continue to think about him often, but I took these thoughts into my evening runs. They were HARD this week. I felt like I was running in place with the nasty heat we have been having...I mean 97 degrees in May, what the heck!? Secondly, work was overwhelming, and I didn't feel so hot physically. The day ended with a client asking if I got in a "bar fight" due to some Lupus marks on my face, and I was like....ughh! Really, I just smiled and said, "No it's Lupus." He asked how I got it...like I picked it up somewhere...oh boy...we do need to be a little more sensitive and educated as a whole don't we? Well, I don't like to talk much on my Lupus, but the sun has started to take a toll. However, I still feel very lucky to maintain it the way I do. I guess to a stranger it's visible, but I am used to it and move on with daily business.

Well, as Memorial Weekend approaches in a few weeks, I think about where I was last year. I cannot believe it's been almost a year that I was at Ft. Hood watching/listening to the Lt. Dan Band Play W/ Gary Sinise. Max and checked it out as his father was currently deployed at the time, and I thought it would boost his spirits to see the band perform for soldiers getting ready to deploy. It was a great treat, as they were awesome, and very entertaining for all ages. I was even handed a fruit basket by on of the band's escorts and passed it around like a was at a picnic with one large family.

Well is this Memorial Weekend approaches, I wonder what I will do to show support...besides the usual running for this fundraiser. But I hope to be a part of an event like the uplifting concert Max and I attended last year.

I hope if you are reading this that you will be able to show support where you live. Unfortunately it's easy to forget about our men and women while we are wrapped up in our daily lives, so please show appreciation for them when you have the chance.

May 4, 2010

2010-05-02T20:45:00.000-07:00

It's Sunday...a great weekend ending and another workweek ahead. There are 3 things in life I know right now and they are, I love my son more than anything in this world, not a day goes by when I don't think about my brother, and I am very thankful of our servicemen and women. As Ryan's birthday approaches on May 4, he would have been 31 this coming Tuesday. Of course, due to his birthday coming up, I have been thinking about him more than usual. I have also been in constant contact with my best bud overseas right now, and another dear friend about to depart for more work overseas on another continent. So Ryan's spirit, and the connection with friends abroad, I was extra motivated to run today. Unfortunately, I started too late in the day and made a scheduled 10 mile run an 8 mile run. It was pretty sunny and 90 degrees felt pretty hot today. But I trucked through and let the songs on my IPod sway my thoughts from one emotion to the other. I love 80's music and well the song, Forever Young by Alphaville popped on. This song was kind of my song for the last marathon, and it flows into the next one, because it's my "Ryan" song. He will be forever young in my head and my heart but he will also be the biggest reason I ever had the guts to start this. So tonight my thoughts go out to my brave friends, and on Tuesday I will smile when I think about my brother and the last time I gave him a hug, for that precious moment re-plays like an old movie in the back of my head all the time. :)

T R U S T

2010-04-27T21:43:00.000-07:00

The way my blogs went for the Austin Marathon were a little different than they are a present time. It was my first marathon, I was nervous, excited, anxious and running was kind of new to me again. I am not a running veteran by any means now, but there's only so much one can talk about a 7, 10, 15, 20 mile run without feeling too redundant.

One thing I have really tried to work on over the past couple of years is learning to trust again, and trying not to give too much trust to those who are not deserving. It can be tricky as I seem to wear my heart on my sleeve and enjoy letting those I care about know how much they mean to me. On the other hand, sometimes I can reveal too much without allowing others to prove they are trustworthy.

With the last marathon, I put my trust into a various groups of people and they came through with flying colors to help with this fundraiser. In my personal life, I have started to let down walls that were pretty thick due to a death and divorce within a month from each other because I felt my life was on the right track again. I wanted to share my happiness... the joy that came from talking about Ryan, giving back to our troops, finishing a 26.2 mile run, and managing Lupus.

But as my personality goes, I can just build those walls back up the minute I feel I cannot trust someone. So, going into this next challenge, I want to work on the ability to better judge when I am giving too much too soon, or not being trusting enough. This applies to work, this fundraiser, and friends. I am thankful for my family because they are who I turn to whenever I may be in doubt.

As flaws goes, it's one I plan to tweak a bit. And now for that run---7 miles tonight---on the trail, with a slight breeze to keep the temperature pretty okay for Austin---76 Degrees

Regretfully, I head to bed, as it's way too late!

You Never Know

2010-04-24T21:48:00.000-07:00

Today was great. I spent the day with Max, enjoying a Saturday with a walk around Town Lake, kicking the ball around a bit and entertaining the ducks. From time to time we grab lunch at a restaurant we both enjoy and today was one of those days. There's a really nice guy who works there and he's always pleasant to Max and I and we usually have a little conversation as we have seen him several times working at this restaurant.
Well, the conversation lead to family talk, and because he told me he didn't always live in Austin, I asked him, something about his parents maybe living here? He said, no my parents are dead, they were murdered when he was a young boy. I was stunned and he told me a little about that time in his life and I just didn't know what to think. It just had me thinking for the rest of the day about the different people we meet and their backgrounds. This guy is super kind and always has a smile for his customers, seems to enjoy his job and he went through such a tragic experience...he witnessed the event.
It was just one of those days when you really appreciate that everyone has a story, and that you especially may never know what someone has been through because behind a smile and a pleasant personality this person had been through tremendous heartache.

Before we left, we were laughing and joking around again, as he has children and is always great at entertaining Max when we visit. That's the part of his story I appreciated the most...that he still is able to share happiness with complete strangers.

2010 ING NYC MARATHON CHALLENGE

2010-04-20T14:34:00.000-07:00

Have you ever had one of those moments when you just snap inside? I don’t mean in a bad way, but more like, “oh yah, I need to wake up and get charged up again” type of a moment. Well today, out of the blue, it was like someone went “ping” on my head with a little hammer and a miniature me was sitting on my shoulder saying, “Psst..Sarah, when are you going to start going again”? I thought, yah, it’s about time to get in the zone again and try my best at this next challenge.

I am very blessed to have an entry to the 2010 ING NYC Marathon. I did think about doing Chicago, but NYC marathon is one month later, so more time to get ready for this one. So, I am going to count this as my first day of training for NYC Marathon which will take place on November 7, 2010.

I had great support from Austin, my family and friends, and Face book and Twitter. To those who helped out before, I will try not to bug you as much this time around, but if you could spread the word that we are raising goal amount to $26,200 for NYC, I would appreciate any amount you are someone you know can donate (including business/company donations).

You can donate directly online at http://www.runningforryan.com/ and click on donate link, or make a donation payable to: Running For Ryan

and mail to:

Running For Ryan

c/o Sarah Shay

P.O. Box 300766

Austin, TX 78703

Donations made to Running For Ryan help cover costs to keep the fundraiser going as well as given back to the Wounded Warrior Project.

email: runningforryan@gmail.com for information

Thank you for all your support!

April 7, 2010

2010-04-07T12:00:00.000-07:00

I have been blessed to receive a spot in the NYC Marathon this fall, and that just got me thinking about the 13,000 additional dollars I promised to raise after the Austin Marathon. I will know soon enough if I get the green light to go ahead with this event! Stay tuned.

P.S.
UPDATE: I AM NOT RUNNING THE CHICAGO MARATHON. IF YOU WISH TO RUN FOR RYAN, YOU HAVE TO ALREADY BE REGISTERED FOR THE RACE. I DO NOT HAVE RACE ENTRIES FOR THIS EVENT. THANKS! Sarah

March 29, 2010

2010-03-23T19:52:00.001-07:00

I cannot believe nearly a month and a half has passed since Austin's Marathon. Fully recovered, yes. In fact, a good 2-3 weeks is what I needed before I started running again. Today the heat was picking up in Austin. High 70's, but not too bad on the trail as it's been breezy since last week. Tonight I had Max, so a 3 mile stroller run. Really hard to do now that he's 5, but still manageable. So far keeping my longest runs near 7-8 miles just to maintain a platform before I start getting into it in a couple of months again. I am crossing my fingers for some news on my next marathon. Other than that, anyone still running the Chicago Marathon, feel free to contact me, as you can join the team at anytime(also found on cararuns.org). In fact, anyone doing any race can raise money with us. I guess I should have pointed this out sooner. I just like to set goals for myself, and the marathon seems to be the goal I personally have in mind at the moment, and it has generated some generous donations in the past. It's not a walk in the park to prepare for if you have a busy, normal life as a full time employee and parent, so congrats to all those who do! Please continue to email me at runningforryan@gmail.com if you have an idea for raising money with me, or want to run and raise money, or want to make a donation. Thanks so much! Sarah

It's Been Awhile, March 23, 2010

I see that my last post was 20 days ago. Well it's been quite a month. Work picked up again, Max was sick for 4 days with a stomach bug, moved closer to town, and had to prepare my first birthday party for Max's 5th birthday. In between all of that a lot of mind wandering and pondering. I am going to say it right now, that Chicago is probably out of the picture for this year anyway. I really didn't rationalize the decision at all before I blurted it out. I was coming off an extreme high from the Austin Marathon and wanted to have another goal to focus on right away. So, I just picked a fall marathon. And because it is a part of my life forever, I have to bring up the fact my Lupus triggered again right after the marathon. Though it seems to be leaving again for now, I really have to face the facts that blazing sun on my face and neck will eat my skin up alive this summer if I am not careful. So, I am looking into doing a marathon in Nov., as it will give me an extra month to train in less extreme Texas heat.

But most importantly I don't want to quit this challenge. For the past 3 weeks I haven't written a thought or focused on the fundraising at all. I had to take care of personal things, and get Max settled in our new place and adjust to our new surroundings and decide if this was going to work again like the Austin Marathon did.

So without promising just yet, I am still committed at this point. I just don't know which event I can/want to do next. What I do know right now is Ryan's spirit has started to surround me again and I had an awesome, sweaty 7 mile run tonight. Doing about 4 days a week of running right now to keep in the swing of things and to do alright in the Capital 10K coming up in a couple of weeks. I feel the adrenaline starting to kick in again, and I look forward to knowing where the next challenge will take me. I have faith an answer will come soon.

Take care.

March 3, 2010

2010-03-03T06:46:00.000-08:00

Please visit www. cararuns.org

if you are looking to join a marathon training club and want to Run For Ryan and raise money for the Wounded Warrior Project.

Email runningforryan@gmail.com for more information.

Thanks!

March 2, 2010

2010-03-02T06:45:00.000-08:00

After writing the blog below, it got me thinking about how lucky I am. I wrote the soldier I was talking about an email today to say hello. I had to take a minute and realize it's okay to feel a little off, but that the focus needs to go back on keeping Ryan as my guide to running and to raise more money again for the Wounded Warrior Project. Maybe he wasn't the one to enter my dreams this time around, but dreaming about someone I know over seas made me snap back into my zone. It's actually the unknown part about this journey that makes it so much more special and exciting. I really can't wait to go to Chicago and do this marathon. Thanks A.S. for being there and inspiring me to be a better person.

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I woke up this morning with a jolt of energy. I had a very deep sleep for once since the Austin Marathon.
It's true, I got the post race blues. I know why. I was so focused and organized, scheduled, and mentally in the running zone that it made me feel comfortable. I totally forgot about being divorced and the fact that I have not allowed time for a relationship in my life over the past 3 years. But, it didn't bother me. I was so focused on the goal, work and trying to be a good mom that I didn't think too much about other relationships.
But after the race, a feeling of loneliness swept in, and took over for a bit. My mind and body were not occupied with anything to achieve other than my normal duties as an employee and mom. Single parents, and maybe single moms in general can probably relate? I was a stay at home mom, then semi stay at home, then full time working mom and caregiver while his dad was away for military duties. I felt like in order to be a good mom, I couldn't strive too hard with work (ie:cooporate 80 hour workweek) or anything else because I might take away from what I would be giving to my son.
When I decided to start running again after Ryan came to me in a dream, I didn't think twice. At first it was a way to get back into exercising on a regular basis. But when I decided to raise money for veterans, it became a mission. After the Austin Marathon I didn't want the mission to stop, but I was a bit overwhelmed and imagined another marathon and fundraising drive would be pushing it. But, then I started to think about how it felt to be healthy and give back to a charity close to my heart.
I had a dream last night. I was having such a great sleep and it carried into a dream that I vividly remember. I was on a train. It was going very fast, but we were high up, like we were riding around some mountain top. The sky was violet and glowing, very mystical and calm. The view was great, and next to me was a friend who's over in Iraq right now. I looked at him, and asked, "What are you doing here." He said he had some time off and wanted to go for a train ride. I was like, "uh, okay". So, we sat on the train together, looking out at the sky and talked for a bit. When the train stopped, he headed back to Iraq, and I ended up a Max's school where there was a buffet of never ending food. So, I grabbed Max and made him a plate and sang songs with the kids. It was a random dream, but a nice dream.

"To dream that you are on a train, symbolizes your life's journey. It suggests that you are on the right track in life and headed in the right direction. Alternatively, you have a tendency to worry needlessly over a situation that will prove to work out in the end. " (maybe my dream was trying to tell me something)
So, now that I think the post race craziness is easing up and floating away, I am ready to Run For Ryan again, and for our troops.

MARCH 1, 2010

2010-03-01T14:49:00.000-08:00

Well, haven't written in a few days. It's been really crazy lately. Still on a little bit of a post marathon blah, after running the Austin Marathon on Valentine's Day. Seriously considering if I am able to do this. But being stubborn, I don't feel like I can change my mind now. I have only ran 3 or 4 times since Austin Marathon, and I think that has made me a little blue. So, I am going to try and get back on a good running schedule, just to feel normal again.

We have added Chicago Area Runner's Club (CARA) as a partner in the Chicago Marathon. Just email me for details. They will train you, and you can run for us on race day while reaching your personal fundraising and running goal.

Biggest worry is can I do it again. But I don't want to put too much pressure on myself. I think if I just relax a little bit everything will come together like it did in Austin. I have one Austin team member going out with me, as he was the only marathoner on the Austin Team. So, it will be nice to have a friend make the trip with me.

It was a great journey and a great team while doing the Austin fundraising and training. Please contact me with any questions. Also, if you know anyone who would like to make a donation to our cause, point them in the direction of our web site.

Thanks so much! Look forward to meeting new runners!

New Challenge

2010-02-22T20:20:00.000-08:00

(snow in Austin 2-23-10-edited photo so you can see snow on my hat:))

(70 degrees in Austin on 2-21-10, crazy change in temps!)

2-23-10

Great news on next fundraising goal. Running For Ryan for Wounded Warrior Project is going to team up with the Chicago Area Runner's Club (CARA). This is another non-profit org. that will train you for a marathon, and in exchange you can run for a charity. There is a fee for this training, and I will give the details as soon as we have it all put together. But basically they will be your training club and you would pick a charity to run for, like us!:) You don't have to be a part of this club to Run For Ryan, but this is going to be a great option for someone who wants to run the Chicago Marathon and lives in the Chicago area and needs a running club. I had a great 7 mile run today around Town Lake. No one was out in the semi-snowy weather, so I enjoyed a private run and the snowflakes that brushed my cheeks. It feels good to be out and getting some miles in again. I definitely needed this after taking a week off.

2-22-10 Post Marathon Emotions

First official day of this next challenge. I took a week off after the Austin Marathon, and maybe that's my problem. I cannot sleep. I have been an insomniac lately. First couple of days I was probably living off the excitement of finishing my first marathon. Then, I came up with the idea to do another race/fundraiser, so I thought about that. Then, the anxiety crept in, what if I fail, and ruin the high spirit of what we just accomplished in Austin? Since I am being so open with my feelings, I balled my eyes out last night (Sunday). In the middle of all this I also had a riff with someone close to me. It has nothing to do with Running For Ryan, but it was something extra to throw into the potpourri of emotions I felt after my first marathon. So, I called a friend up and told this person, I am going nuts. This person, said, "no it's normal, it's the post race blues".

Feeling a little better, I took some advice from this friend, and headed out for a run after work. Max in tow this time, with stroller, I did an easy breezy 3 mile run. Instantly my shoulders relaxed, the cool air felt great, and Max hopped out and ran a mile with me! He seems to like running already. No pressure on the kid, but it was pretty cool to jog along with him. Gotta get him going on the bike, because, at nearly 5, it's a haul to push him in a jogging stroller these days.

Still a little wired tonight, I feel a little more at ease, and very excited to have found a potential solution to getting this team built for Chicago. I will let you know soon.

2010-02-21T18:37:00.001-08:00

10-10-10 CHICAGO MARATHON

2010-02-17T19:01:00.000-08:00

(be a part of the team)

(CPT Matt Cavanaugh -Army Athlete of the Year!)

http://www.mattcavanaugh-teamwwp.blogspot.com/

2-18-10
Austin
My thoughts are with anyone directly hurt by the plane/building crash today.
Crazy to drive home and see a building slightly resembling the aftermath from 2001.
But it reminded me of our servicemen and women who work hard to protect us/ and or save us when something like this happens.

So today, I am going to stray away from my fundraiser challenge and put the spotlight on a friend of mine, CPT Matt Cavanaugh. He was my inspiration when I first started my WWP challenge, and has a sweet personality and is dedicated to his work and helping out his wounded comrades. He has raised nearly $45,000 for the WWP and was just named Army Athlete Of The Year! Technically, he's my competition, but I don't view it that way. As we are all raising for the same cause, I am happy to put his blog up, so you can follow an active duty Army Captain reach awesome goals, and donate to his page if you'd like.
I almost convinced him to run the Austin Marathon with me, but he decided on Myrtle Beach (financially easier as he lives out East), but Myrtle was cancelled because it snowed! He has several other races lined up, so check out his schedule, and if you are at one of his races, be sure to cheer him on loudly. Maybe we can convince him to do Austin next year:)

Matt, congratulations, and all the best on the rest of your running and fundraising journey for WWP.
You are the epitome of a great serviceman for our country.

2-17-10
GOAL: 26.2 miles around 4:15 time, raise $26,200 for Wounded Warrior Project

Honestly, I don't know how I am going to do this, but , I felt drawn to this specific marathon and this date. Three 10's, it just seems like a lucky day. We were lucky this past Valentine's Day at the Austin Marathon, as we have raised nearly $13,000 for the Wounded Warrior Project in my brother's memory. I finished my first marathon with a sub 5 hour goal time of 4:33, and now I feel like all the support has given me courage to continue.
I had to sit on this a few days before talking about it because it's a lot of work for a single parent, with limited cash flow, and have to take my Lupus condition into consideration this time around. I was diagnosed last summer, and pretty much didn't run for the better part of the summer as inflammation was at its peak. However, I have never been happier in my life, and I cannot imagine stopping just yet as literally hundreds of supporters have been just as happy as I am to keep Ryan's memory alive.
There were moments I was overwhelmed with this last challenge for the Austin Marathon, but my arms were open to anyone who wanted to help, and that's how it was possible to do what we have done so far.
So, I will adapt to running in the sun with as minimal exposure as possible, and start asking for help immediately.
We had a 12 member running team, plus myself for the Austin Marathon. I would like to recruit another 12 member team. I would like to ask anyone who is running the Chicago Marathon and wants to run with Running For Ryan to contact me at: runningforryan@gmail.com
Ideally, you will produce your own entry fee, and fund your own trip. Myself and another team member from Austin will raise money as well before heading out to Chicago, granted we can fund our trip. That's a separate issue, but I am positive with over 6 months to go, we will make it work.
I would ask that you set a goal of $1,000 to raise individually for the cause. I will provide the uniforms through sponsors just as we did for Austin.
When I first started the challenge for Austin, Gary Brimmer and John and Stacey Conley, and Joey Trimyer didn't wince once at the idea as they were the first to reach out a hand to me. So, I need to take this optimistic attitude into the next challenge and hope that we will all succeed again.
Please let me know as soon as possible if you are game, and we will go from there.
Thanks!

LOVE

2010-02-14T17:34:00.000-08:00

A few of the team members

(right after the marathon, with cheryl lowe)

(left to right (front), Joe, Kenton, Me, Nancy (back) Gabi, Andrew)

2-15-10

A new adventure is in the works. Now that I have had a taste of one marathon, another one seems like the next best thing. Is it normal to feel this enthusiastic? I sincerely love all the supporters. When someone asks you, "what's next?" well that's all it takes to stay motivated. Max was my hero tonight, carrying the bags out of the car for mama. He even made a bed on the couch for me so I could rest my legs. A little time off for now, and then some planning. If you are thinking about running your first race (whatever the distance) do it! Everyone has a reason, and it really has made this journey that more sincere. Goodnight.

2-14-10

As I thought would happen, little sleep last night, but finally got in a couple of hours before the run. Didn't know if I could even think about writing tonight, because of the shock on my body and the overwhelming emotions I experienced today.

The run was great up until mile 20. About 2 miles in, I had to pee, and waited 4 minutes for a pit stop. So, being anxious, I ran hard to make it up because I wanted to see if a 10 min pace was possible. I did it up until mile 21, than I just went ouch, body doesn't want to run anymore. The last 5 miles were brutal. I hated them. The sun was plastering my face, which is horrible for potential Lupus flare up, and I could feel it. Forgot to put sunscreen on, and besides weather called for clouds, not sunshine. Seriously, I was going for a sub-5, so why I am complaining about missing a 10 min. pace? So, I will shut up about that now.

When I saw my friend/coach approach me a mile and a half before the finish, I cried instantly. This emotion carried me through the finish when I saw a team mate, some family members and my son cheering me on with a sign he decorated, my heart melted. I just wanted to pick him up and squeeze him hard, but than I noticed I couldn't walk. Now I know what it's like to have that stiff, just ran a marathon body.

Headed back to the hotel to meet family and friends, and ran into Bart Yasso again. Embarrassingly enough, I don't really know many names in the running world, so when I first met him on Friday, I said, your name looks familiar. Well, the rest is history. He is a very cool guy, and said, "You did it, great job." I just balled my eyes out, because it was at that moment, that everything just came full circle. All I could think about was Ryan. I miss him so much. Today it aches. But so MANY awesome people that I don't even know pushed me to finish this just as much as those who know me, that it just makes me the happiest marathon finisher to know the memory of my brother is still strong in the hearts of many.

When I finally headed home, and tried to get out of the car, that's when the physical pain went full throttle! I was so cold, I took a hot shower and wrapped up in a blanket and passed out on the sofa. When I woke up, I could barely move, and did an ice bath. Wow! Freaking cold, but totally heavenly for my knees and calves. Never tried it before, but learning some running do and and don'ts every day.

Popped some Motrin for my screaming headache, and now I am pretty okay.
Emotionally, a little off (what's new). All I want to do is run another marathon. Yah, funny, because I told my coach, never in a million years right towards the finish. But Running For Ryan was developed from a dream I had about Ryan, and now the dream I had to finish this race and meet a fundraising goal has been completed. So what now? Running For Ryan will continue. Donations can be made as long as the WWP exists and I will keep the link there.

I am going to find a way to keep running, which means I will have to make some changes in the future, but this past 6 months introduced me to the world of running and non-profit work, so we will just see where it leads. This was one of the best days of my life! How fitting that it was Valentine's Day, as there was love everywhere on the Austin course today. A great race organization, a great city to call home now. Thanks Team Sente for your support and love. You guys are so kind! Let's run together again!

"It is necessary to dig deep within oneself to discover that hidden grain of steel called will." -- Ryan Shay

2010-02-04T20:18:00.000-08:00

(start of Austin Marathon in Afghanistan, via CPT Johnston)
(The Sente Team)

(A good friend I have known over the past few years from afar while on a previous deployment, hanging out with some super kids)(Ryan smiling big on day before his wedding)

2-13-10 Not the First

My older brother Case ran the NYC marathon in 2008, a year after Ryan passed away. He was very jet lagged and still managed to come in under 3 hours! Along with some of Ryan's Notre Dame buddies, they honored his memory that day. So, I am proud to be able to do it this time around. I have been nervous, excited, and now relaxed in the course of the last 24 hours. The last time I was with Ryan was in Flagstaff, a few months before he passed away. On the visit, the last thing he was thinking about was racing. His biggest agenda was trying to get Max wrestle with the dog. It was obvious he was enjoying a visit from his sister, brother, and nephew as Alicia and Ryan were heartwarming hosts. It makes me realize too, before I run tomorrow that running isn't life, but life is about running. I love it now, and it's a part of me, but no matter the outcome of my finish, I have had a huge support group, and love you all.

And please keep the donations coming! For veterans looking to run their first race with life alterning injuries, the WWP helps with such events. All I have to do is move my 2 legs but some of these brave men and women are doing it with one or less. Bless you all! I look forward to having fun on the Austin course tomorrow!

2-8-10-Better

I really haven't slept well since my apartment was robbed last Friday. But today there was a good energy in the air, especially with the continued support of the fundraiser and the marathon challenge. Due to a drop in temperature, which I loved, the trail was dead. I thought it was a perfect day for a run and took advantage of the solitude on the path. Then, something amazing happened, I think I had the best run of my training so far. Not once did a break my pace, and I pretended it was race day because I felt like my legs wanted to continue forever. It took me back to a dream I had about Ryan a few weeks ago. Not, the one that got the ball rolling;when my legs felt like lead and wouldn't move. But a few weeks ago, I called my parents and let them know I had another memorable dream. Ryan and I both had running bibs on ready to start the NYC Marathon. I was in the elite group(remember this is a dream) and the gun went off...suddenly there were all these obstacles, and I turned to him and asked how we were going to finish now? Suddenly we were crossing over a bridge in NYC, and soon it became a single rope and we commando crawled to a tree house that was high on a pole in the sky. Ryan sat down and in a peaceful voice, said, I have to go now, and so do you. Open up that door and jump and you will find the road again. So he closed his eyes, and I jumped, and my feet hit the ground and I just started running. I can't explain how he really has been a phenomenal positive force in the past 6 months. I don't how it's possible to feel him around me all the time, but I just can't shake the feeling, and tonight, once again when I ran over the I35 bridge and looked down at the water, as it sparkled so happily that I didn't even question why I felt so good, I just went with it and had the best run in a very long time.

2-7-10-Seriously?

Friday,apartment robbed, check(get renter's insurance, I didn't have it, duh!). Saturday, car smashed in store parking lot(bad hit in run while in the store, big white truck driving guy didn't leave me his insurance info., shocker! But it runs, barely, and Max was not inside ), check. Sunday, realized not only was my computer swiped, but my small jewelery box. I probably cried a good hour, feeling all invaded and creepy inside knowing a stranger was taking my memories away stored in that box. Besides a few valuables, there were a couple of Ryan memorabilia I will never get back. I despise you dear thief, for this made me cry more than losing my technical equipment. No sleep, check, for I feel like someone is still creeping around my home. Great run on Saturday, yes, surprisingly, due to lack of sleep. Having breakfast with the team was uplifting as well, as Sente is just a group of the nicest people you will encounter.

On a serious note, (yes the above was pretty serious), my courageous sister has been laid up for a week. She can walk, barely with the help of a walker. I pray for an answer and hope the doctors will found out quickly what is going on! She surprised me a couple of weeks ago by telling me she would arrive Saturday to watch the marathon, and apologized for not being able to walk(tears). Obviously, I told her, are you crazy, get better! But she has a great sense of humor, and we try to make light of it for now. So, sis, I will pray for your recovery and run for you too! Tonight, probably zone out to John Mayer, and do nothing...

2-4-10THANKS!

I have been so swamped for time, aren't we all, right! American lifestyle...work, work, work. It's hard to get a blog in these past few weeks. But with all the hard work comes the sweet reward of knowing I have helped kept Ryan's memory alive as well as honor our awesome men and women in uniform.

Although I started alone with a dream to do this challenge, the end result of success comes from dozens of loving supporters.

Thanks to Gary Brimmer who found my blurb on line about doing this. He got me in touch with John and Stacey Conley of Conley Sports. They have been the best support team, and I appreciate all the help. Pam LeBlanc introduced herself to me at a fundraising event and is the kindest type of person you could ever meet. I am bless to know her, and thank her and the Austin American Statesman for their support in sharing this story and promoting the cause.

Andrew Smith from Sente Mortgage, but more importantly someone who once met Ryan and opened his heart to this challenge and introduced an entire team to help raise the second half of the goal amount. Team Sente, I appreciate all your efforts, and know you will continue to do good in the future with your charity chapter of your company.

Amanda and The Notre Dame Club of Austin (Ryan's Alma Mater) Thanks for the race uniform tops! We will run proudly in them!

Local Austin Businesses such as: J Conn Roofing, Granite Properties of Texas, Go With The Flo, Red Licorice Events, Jack and Adams Bicycles, Rogue Running, Bettysport, Highway Technologies, STN Properties, Abilene VFW Post, and many others who wish to be anonymous.

Thanks to all the supporters from my home state of Michigan. Some of you know me, but many of you were fans of Ryan, or coached with my parents. Thanks!

Thanks to Joey Trimyer, my media guy. I have no idea how to make a web page, so thanks for building it for me, as well as your support with fundraising events! You are a easy to work with, and it's been fun!

Thanks to my coworkers who I have annoyed for 6 months with all the running talk. Yes, I once was annoyed by runners who talk about running, and now I do it! However, I do have to say, I am impressed with Terry and Barbara for training just as hard for the 1/2 marathon. Yeah!

My parents have been a huge support. I have never talked to them more in my life! It's a good thing!
My brothers and sisters, who I miss extremely and love so much. I wish we all lived in the same city! It's hard not to cry right now, just thinking about you all!
My best friend on deployment, you know who you are!
My ex-husband and well, my friend. You have been very supportive since returning from your deployment. I am glad this experience has allowed us to grow as friends. I wish you happiness in the future. Now that's growth!:)
Charlotte and JP , and Barbara. While Max's dad was away, you bent over backwards to help with Max while I trained. Thank you!
Christine and Ike...you too! Thanks for being there for Max and I.

My son! I love you more than anything in this world Max! I know it's been so busy at times, but you have always been such a trooper. I can't wait to see you at the finish line. Because as you told me once, "I want to see you win mama because we are getting money for the hurt soldiers." You are such a kind and caring boy. Many kisses xoxo.

To everyone I might have forgotten (on accident), and to those who privately support this challenge, thank you! I have been touched by emails, and words of encouragement. I really feel my life has changed for the better. Most of you supporting this cause are not rich like myself, but we knew we could make a difference, and it's been awesome. If I could keep running for charities and quit my job, I would (no offense job, but it would be cool). There's an addiction to lacing up some shoes and going for a daily run. Add a very worthwhile cause in to the mix, and you have the best feeling out of life one could imagine.

Thanks to CPT Johnston for supplying the photo above. He too has become a fan of running. The picture is a group of servicemen and women completing a half or full marathon in Afghanistan with support from the Austin Marathon. That is cool!

Six months have flown by. Ryan has been with me every step of the way. I love you dear brother. You left us way too soon. But your beautiful, young, angelic face is etched in my memory forever. Included in this blog, one of my favorite pictures of you from the day before your wedding. You were beaming from ear to ear.

I look forward to an exciting future with you guiding me along the way.

To all of our men and women in uniform, THANK YOU!

Almost 2 Week Count Down

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like a sister, "T"(left) and me

We are coming close to the 2 week mark. As I get closer to running my first marathon, I start to think about our military more and what they continue to do for us. My best friend (I only have a couple of these) "T" and I are like sisters. In fact, since knowing each other over the last 6-7 years we were often asked if we were. She is overseas right now, somewhere, serving our country. I can't imagine a future without her friendship and I hope to share a million more stories about our chaotic, but blessed lives, including the never ending conversations about men.:)

When Max's dad was overseas for a year, I held my breath each time something tragic would appear on the news, and await the standard, "I am okay,I wasn't in that area of the IED explosive" email. Now, I cringe the same way when bad news pops up on the Internet because my buddy, "my sister" is there too. But, we have to keep living "life as usual" as civilians over here as well.

The balance of appreciating our military men and women, and continuing to live day to day at home can be tricky when you actually know someone far away in harm's way. The first time I went to Walter Reed, I wanted to scoop up all of the wounded soldiers and tell them I love them.

I felt sorry for them. But after speaking with one wounded soldier I learned that pity wasn't the response he wanted, but a sense of relief that his injuries would hopefully heal, and that he would be looked at as a man who served not a crippled individual.

So, tonight a special hello to "T", who has been one of my biggest supporters of this fundraiser to Wounded Warrior Project. May you be safe tonight and every night, and tell your company over there that I will run for you all with Ryan's help on 2-14-10.

Check this video out -- Higher http://youtu.be/kmJYYvgOSx0 Thanks to bro Case...get pumped up!

January 26, 2010

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In the past, one thing I have never been told…is that I don’t talk enough. As a matter of a fact, sometimes I talk too much. I am one of those who don’t like to stay mad in a situation. I might get worked up, say my piece and walk away, but I usually always apologize; even if I feel it wasn’t “my fault”.
However, since Ryan passed away, and my marriage ended, I became very walled up and didn’t trust a word or an action by most I encountered. This is not a reflection of anything in particular, but maybe how I dealt with the pain. For over two years I was a hermit, and pretty much didn’t do anything but work, and be a mom. I made it a point to never let someone get to know me.
Running has allowed me to take a bad day and throw it into a run and for me it’s like being at a spa where all my worries melt, and the sky is my guide. Like yesterday, running across I35 bridge again, looking up at clouds swirled in purple, orange, dark blue and gray. Edges of some of the clouds etched out like angel wings and a warmth of color that guided me to the end of a nice tempo run.
Running has made me a little more “ballsy”, like being able to talk to a group about what I am doing, being able to ask for money for our wounded veterans and not being shy about it. Most importantly, I have come to terms with reconciliation better than in the past. I hate going to bed mad at anyone, and vice versa. If I feel someone has been hurt by my actions I want to fix it right away. I know this stems from not being able to say goodbye to Ryan or finding a way to patch a failed marriage. I make an honest effort to always say goodbye and I love you to those I care about, so I don’t have to wonder if they ever knew how much they meant to me.
Running has allowed me to join a community of runners everywhere, fast or slow, young and older who share the same enjoyment I do when looking at my watch knowing I just clocked off another few miles for the week.
Running tells me that the past is so 5 minutes ago, and that an unknown future is more exciting than predicting life. All the sad troubles of the world leave my head when I run (except for that crappy run on last Sat.:)), and for an hour or so out of the day, life is peaceful, and no is mad at me, and I am not mad at me or anyone else.

Humbling Weekend, January 24, 2010

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(ryan far left, laughing (then and now in heaven) and me next to him, along with the rest of us)

I had my first cry over a run this weekend. Over the past 5 months it’s been a pretty good time; busy at moments as well as tiring and anxious. But, Sat. morning, after my attempted 16-18 mile run (only completed 13, and recovered with 2 mile walk), I got in the car and cried that I might not finish this marathon. I just completed a 22 mile run 2 weeks prior and felt on top of the world, but I had a slight melt down this last Saturday.
From the time the run started I had negative thoughts of not making it through the desired distance, and I totally felt run down. Since I started the training I never cheated a long run, and so I feel like I let myself down. Let me quote an Enimen song, “Lose Yourself”…goes something like “success is my only option, failure’s not”…or something like that. It’s on my play list because it’s a pump you up kind of a song…but that’s how I felt when I didn’t complete my run.
When I started this challenge, I was worried about the 26.2 miles, than I was worried about the fundraiser, then I was worried about having the time to do it all, and so I guess I met my breaking point. So, I got on the phone, called a friend who coaches, and he practically laughed at myself pity, and assured me everyone has a crappy run and to go ahead and do a 6-7 mile run on Sunday to feel better about missing a few miles on Sat. Well, after watching some friends compete on the windy, hour-long delayed 3M Half Marathon, I did just that.
It was one of the most comforting desirable runs to date. It cleared my head, and I felt okay again. Like many running their first marathon, I am not seeking an elite time or place, but don’t want to see all the hard work pan out into a marathon I could not finish. So, instead of worrying my head off because there are 3 weeks to go, I am going to get to that happy little place in my head that tells me, “Ryan is laughing his butt off because you are running a marathon. So, enjoy laughing with him. Because, he will help me get through this, like he did on my 22 mile run.” I am blessed to make it this far, and don't want to take any of it for granted, for I know at current time my best friend is serving overseas, and an earthquake has shattered thousands of lives.

The Sente Team is doing awesome, running hard at Camp Mabry on Sat., and excited about getting his/her donations. I am glad to get the worrying done sooner than later. Let's see if I can let if flow for the time being until race day:)

Team Sente! Hello! January 21, 2010

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(Max and Mom.)

My biggest supporter, Max. He's the sweetest little guy I could ever imagine being a mom to and he's my number one! We were heading to work/school this morning and he asks when I am going to run the race (Austin Marathon 2010)? I told him soon. Then he told me he wants me to win a big trophy so he could put it in his bedroom. So...now I am thinking about buying a fake trophy just to give him for being such a good sport about all the running around we've been doing lately.

Today was also a great day for team work. Sente Mortgage has come aboard and is off to a great start with this fundraiser. I am so happy to have them all support Running For Ryan and can't wait to be on the road, running together on 2-14-10.

We have a little over 3 weeks left before the big day and so if you are reading this, please take a few minutes to give any amount you can to severely wounded veterans. We are all listed on the donation link, so pick anyone and give.

I am still excited about Stephan's run in Houston last weekend. You are such an inspiration, little bro, and can't wait to see you run again (if its not a million miles away):)

Thanks for being patient Max, and thanks Sente Mortgage for being there to honor Ryan's memory. Currently over $6,000 raised for our servicemen and women.:)

Very Inspiring Weekend!

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(Stephan and I (Hilton)

(Stephan running to finish)

(Stephan, Meb (2009 NYC Marathon Champ), me with monster pimple (nice)

What a great weekend! I squeezed a 16 mile run out of a semi-tired body on Sat. morning, then headed to Houston.

I was lucky enough to get a pass, so I was able to be right at the finish, and couldn't believe my eyes when my little brother Stephan came whizzing by at a great half marathon debut time of 1:02.26, and a super 5th place finish.

The vibe for race day in Houston was pretty vibrant, and the weather was perfect for a race. I was so proud to see him do better than he expected, and it was had to hold back tears as I could really appreciate the work he's putting in to be such a great runner.

But THE MOST IMPORTANT PART OF THE TRIP was being able to hang out with Stephan and get some brother/sister time in. It sure had been awhile, and totally felt great to be able to give some family support.

After watching him run, he became my inspiration here on earth, while Ryan pushes me from the skies above.

I am going to bed tonight extremely happy for Stephan, and only wish we could have spent more time hanging out. So, congratulations Pups! XOXO

22 Miles in 22 Degree Weather1/10/10

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(Max painted this rainbow today and he was so focused, I had to post it)

22 miles in weather somewhere in the 20's, felt like I was back in Northern Michigan, minus the wet snow.

Considering I had a soar throat 6 days straight, it went well. Today is day 7 of the scratchy throat but I think it's finally making it's way out of my system.

My watch wasn't working right but I think I completed the 22 in about 3:50, or a little longer...so gotta hope that with one more month of training, I will eventually run under a 4:30 on race day.

Today I decided it would be a great time to take Max on Town Lake so he can learn how to ride his 2 wheel bike, and we stopped along the way to feed dozens and dozens of ducks...more than in the summertime. What are those funny looking black ducks called with the short beaks? Anyway the bike ride was ok, but definitely scary to think of him riding minus the training wheels near those edges that fall far and straight into the water...so no rush.

Going to have an early night, and look forward to meeting the Sente running team during lunch on Monday.:)

It was great weekend running wise as well as good quality time with Max. Let's hope the week flys by fast, because I am looking forward to watch my little brother Stephan run in Houston this weekend.

January 7, 2010

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Apparently, I didn't have my dates correct. The Houston race is next weekend. I had it in my head for the longest time that it was on the 10th, but it's for the better anyway. I am on day 4 of being sick. I finally called in to work to day, and spent the day at home. I think it was a wise choice. I did run Mon-Wed, even while under the weather, but totally rested today. I have a 22 mile run planned for Sat., and a part of me doesn't want to deter from the schedule, so I am doing everything to get myself healthy for it.
Had to run to the grocery store to stock up on healthy food, in the freezing cold, and it was super busy, then ironically, picked up a pizza at Papa John's (sick mom, didn't feel like cooking, don't judge) and it was crazy busy, so I asked what was going on? Apparently the Longhorns are playing tonight, and I didn't even know. So, I might consider hooking up my HD converter thing that's been sitting in an unopened box for 4 months now, so I can view the news once in awhile. I mean, I have inter net at home, so I am not out of the loop, I just never have time to watch TV and have never got cable, let alone hooked up the converter thing. So, when traffic is slow in the morning, will that be due to some tired Longhorn fans sleeping in:)?
Off to bed soon. I have been healing pretty good today with Sinus Buster spray(I swear by the capsicum in it) and a lot orange slices. Ironically, oranges/orange juice in large amounts are not good for Lupus, (that's what I read anyway, because of the potassium), but when I am under the weather, it's a big boost for me.

1-2-10 20 Miles! Yah, pretty stoked:)

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(Stephan (left) and Ryan, while we were in Wyoming...going to see Stephan in a week...it's been awhile)

Let's see, once again, Happy 2010 to everyone! On New Year's Day I participated in fun run hosted by Red Licorice events and Jack and Adams in Austin. It was great, and a perfect way to get out and get a little exercise when no one else was out and about. We also received some donations at this event, and many thanks to all of those who gave, and to those who hosted the event.

Today was, shall I say, freaking cool, because I completed my first 20 mile run! Now, the 26.2 race on 2-14-10 seems way more in hand's reach, and amazingly, the run was quite smooth. Sugar levels were smooth and here's a break down of how I got through 20 miles. This worked for me, so going to keep it as a routine for my long run:

Night before:

Spaghetti and meatballs (yes beef and pork mixed together) Red meat is a "no" for Lupus, but I do it pretty sparingly, and it's been OK. The sun is what affects me personally more than anything at this point.

Broccoli

Salad

Garlic bread

Breakfast

1 large oatmeal pancake

1 cup of coffee

water

The run:

half a banana and half a Capri Sun Fruit Punch juice after 8 miles

the other half after 12 miles

and though I was skeptical to try a gel pack, I bought a couple of Hammer Gels to try out, and the Raspberry is a winner. I squeezed one in my mouth (tastes like pure raspberry jam) at mile 17, and felt instant relief and energy, and it got me through the finish, with water in between every few miles as well. I recommend it! Definitely will have a couple on me for the Austin Marathon.

So, I think if I can do this kind of a diet every Friday night and Saturday morning, I can stomach it through the 20 + miles each time.

Looking forward to meeting the Sente team this coming week, and watching my little brother Stephan run the Houston Half on Jan. 10th. I have never visited Houston, so look forward to hanging out in a new city.

Now, it's time to eat leftovers and let my legs relax on the sofa.

12/31/09 Last Post of the Year/Decade!

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Ten years ago many were afraid of 2000 New Year's, thinking the world will end. Well, it's about to be 2010, and we have had many struggles and achievements, but the world is still here, and we are going into the new year with great enthusiasm and Running For Ryan has been blessed by so many.

It's a beautiful day in Austin, TX and I look forward to a 10-12 mile run before festivities start for 1-1-10.

For me, this truly will be a new year in which a lot of positive changes will take place!

These businesses got the ball rolling in 2009 for Running For Ryan for the Wounded Warrior Project:

BBVA Compass Bank

Dynova Labs

Sente Mortgage

J-Conn Roofing

Highway Technologies

Conley Sports

Rogue Running

Notre Dame Club of Austin

And to all the individual donors, media specialist (Joey), and everyone else who has helped kept this cause alive and the funds coming in as we honor Ryan's memory and give our servicemen and women as much support as possible.HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! BLESS ALL OUR MEN AND WOMEN IN UNIFORM AS WE RAISE OUR GLASSES TO YOU AND TOAST IN THANKS!

Running and Life in General 12/30/09

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(Gary Sinise and the LT. Dan Band, Ft. Hood, May, 2009, great show)

Running and Life in General, that's what I decided to call this blog when I woke up that one day in late August and decided to try my first marathon. So, tonight, I don't have much running to talk about, other than my hands and knees are healing from the crash on Town Lake, and I had a decent run tonight. So, instead, I feel like chatting about life.

I just watched a great movie, called "500 Days of Summer", and there's a quote towards the end of the movie that has decent meaning to it: "I woke up one day and I knew what I was never sure of with you." Happened to me 3 years ago.

Can you relate to this? Running has allowed me to process so many thoughts that normally would stir around in my head and keep me restless at night. But going into 2010, a new beginning has really started inside of me. Death, divorce, single parenting, moving from state to state, Lupus, self-doubt, and wondering about the future have become manageable? Each day I step into a run, a sense of calmness engulfs me, and I feel like my brother is actually a part of me at very specific times in my run...especially when I run over a bridge and look out at the water, or see the sun gleaming on the buildings in downtown Austin.

Once again, I don't what gave me the courage to start this challenge. But the only answer I have is love. My brother reached out to me in my dreams, and now others have reached out to me and I sincerely appreciate the help from everyone. It's been a great week of donations. There are some businesses I would like to thank as we approach 2010. These businesses got the ball rolling in 2009 for Running For Ryan for the Wounded Warrior Project:
BBVA Compass Bank

Dynova Labs

Sente Mortgage

J Conn Roofing

Highway Technologies

Conley Sports

Rogue Running

Notre Dame Club of Austin

And to all the individual donors, media specialist (Joey), and everyone else who has helped kept this cause alive and the funds coming in as we honor Ryan's memory and give our servicemen and women as much support as possible.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! BLESS ALL OUR MEN AND WOMEN IN UNIFORM AS WE RAISE OUR GLASSES TO YOU AND TOAST IN THANKS!

12/28/09 Great Day...even with the crash...ouch!

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(Hit a large rock on the trail, and kissed the gravel)

It's a little of a gory pic, but proof that it's not wise to run around Town Lake at night without a light. I was running the fastest tempo run since I began training, knocking 7 minutes off my 7 mile time, in the zone...about a half mile to go...and I felt the rock that was stuck in the ground and slammed on the gravel so hard I thought I broke both arms. Luckily, I was able to get up after a minute and finish the run with a little agony, but swift pace. Well, swift for me.:)

Last Saturday, I completed a 19 mile run, without feeling to great afterward...the nausea from low sugar levels near the 17 mile mark made me feel dizzy and pretty weak, but I finished, and than started feeling major sinus congestion Sunday evening, into Monday morning. However, I have to say that this spray I discovered, SINUS BUSTER, is the best natural nose spray I have ever used. Anytime I feel a little sinus cold coming on, I use this, and I am usually clear in a day.

I had a great Christmas. Max loves his new bike, and all in all, it was a smooth day. Sunday I went out , yeah for Max's dad being back from deployment, and enjoyed drinks and conversation and happy to get out as a single parent for once in a long time:) Starting to get to know more people in Austin and it's beginning to feel more and more like a permanent home.

THE BEST NEWS OF THE DAY: We are receiving a very generous donation from Compass Bank. This donation will put us near $3,800...nearing the half-way point. With 47 days left to go, it's getting super exciting, and I am really enjoying running....though I must admit, the 19 mile run was brutal!

But, it's so worth it, because we are going to get these heroes the $10,000!

CHRISTMAS EVE

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(photo above, last pic I took with brother at his wedding)

It's Christmas Eve and Max went to bed so early! At 6:30pm, he told me he wanted to go to bed because Santa was on his way. I was ready for hot chocolate and a Christmas movie, but he wouldn't have it, so he's sleeping and I am thinking of Ryan. As soon as Max fell asleep, I began thinking of my family. Parents in Michigan, brothers in Arizona, sister in New York, sister in Europe, and brother in S. Korea, and me...in Austin. Thank goodness for Skype and Facebook chat, and good old fashioned talks on the phone, but it feels especially emotional for me this time around. The day I took on the challenge to do a marathon, I have thought about him constantly for the past several weeks. I think my divorce, which occurred simultaneously with his death trumped over mourning for my brother, and so now I mourn him daily, but mostly as a deep inspiration to complete something I never thought achievable in my wildest dreams. I talk, think and dream about my brother more now than in 2007 when he left us. So, I strongly believe he is sending me a message to take care of myself, manage this Lupus thing, forgive, and has introduced me to some great people in the running community just by inspiring me to run. Running has been like a happy drug, easing my daily stress. My favorite part of a run is when I just want to stop, even before my desired distance is finished and just walk and call it a day...BUT when I just look a head, and ignore those urges, I often run quicker, and end up more satisfied because I didn't quit. I have had 3 dreams now where I am being cheered on to the finish..the 1st was Ryan, which is why I started the challenge, the second, one was wounded veterans, waiting in a huge group, cheering on all the runners in the race, and recently I had one of a friend who just joined the running team, and once met my Ryan. So, these encouraging dreams are flowing into my daily runs, and hopefully get me to that finish line. It's quiet on Christmas Eve, with my family here and there but not in Texas. But I cannot wait for Max to wake up to his first bike...one that he can ride while I run.:) Spending the day with my ex and his family...no Jerry Springer moments, I promise:)

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL OF OUR TROOPS. WE ARE SO BLESSED TO ENJOY THESE HOLIDAYS BECAUSE OF YOU!!! LOTS OF LOVE FROM ME TO YOU!!!

Hello SENTE!

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Great news over the weekend...Sente Mortgage (Texas) has volunteered to team up with us with a 10-12 person team. They are going to try and raise $500 a piece. I am so happy, because I spoke with two of the team members already and they are both pumped up to get this money raised for such a great cause.

I had a pretty good 18 mile run on Sat. It was good until about mile 17. Toward the end I felt like throwing up, but finished off the last mile. There wasn't any Gatorade on the trail and so I was hurting for a little sugar towards the end of the run.

Tomorrow, I will announce the winner of the Runner Gift Basket. A lucky donor will receive a free entry into the Austin Marathon as well as a $100 to Rogue Running Equipment on 5th and San Marcos St., Austin.

It's been a very positive few days, lots of good energy streaming through the air and I look forward to working with all the new team members and having a lot of fun along the way!

THANKS FOR DONATING!

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Over $2,000, hooray! I will have a current count of checks shortly, to know what we can add to this amount already.

PLEASE REMEMBER: IF PAYING BY CHECK/MONEY ORDER

MAKE PAYABLE TO: Wounded Warrior Project

MAIL TO:
Running For Ryan

c/o Sarah Shay

P.O. Box 300766

Austin, TX 78703

I need to document mail donations before sending them in. Thanks!

We are entering the 2 month mark before race day, February 14, 2010. How sweet would it be to give our vets this $10,000 by Valentine's Day:)

While we enjoy the Christmas Holiday, think of our servicemen and women overseas, and wish the best for their families awaiting their safe return. I am happy to announce Max's dad will be back for Christmas this year, as his deployment has ended and he's back in Austin, hopefully by tomorrow!

GREAT RUNNER GIFT BASKET-FOR ONE LUCKY DONOR . The basket includes the following:

(1) Free entry to the Full or Half Marathon…$125 for 2010 OR 2011
(2) Rogue Running gift certificate…$100
(3) Two marathon tees…~$50
(4) Marathon logo eco-friendly bottle…$20
(5) Marathon bands CD
(6) Three pairs of socks
(7) Hydra Pouch (running bottle)
(8) Several gels, drink, bars
(9) Sun block
(10) Chap stick w/ SPF
(11) And more!

Those who donate $10 or more from 12/8/09-12/20/09 will have a chance to randomly receive this package. Your name will be entered into a drawing for every $10 donation. So, if you donate $20, your name is entered twice, and so on...I will contact the lucky recipient on Monday, December 21, 2009

WHERE TO DONATE?-ROUGE RUNNING in Austin, on 5th and San Marcos St.(Thanks for the Support!)You may donate with a check or cash at this location. You may also view the actual basket at this location
-ON LINE Just click on the donation link on this page, click on (Sarah Shay), and make a donation. Then, email me at runningforryan@gmail.com and send me your contact information.-

BY MAILChecks made to:

Wounded Warrior Project

Mail to:Running For Ryan

c/o Sarah ShayP.O. Box 300766

Austin, TX 78701

Any checks received by 12/20/09 by mail will also be entered into receive the gift basket.Thanks For Your Support!Email runningforryan@gmail.com with any questions.

Vintage Ryan Pic , just because

2009-12-16T19:33:00.000-08:00

The last time I physically saw my brother was in August of 2007, about a month after his wedding. Max and I and my brother Nate went up to Flagstaff to stay for a weekend before I headed out east with Max. They had a cute little house on a hill and Abdi was in one room and another runner was in the other guest room, so I slept on an extra mattress in Ryan and Alica's room. That's how cool they were. Come stay, and you and Max can share our room. When we settled down for the night, we just chatted and made fun of each other for awhile and it was like a sleepover. I remember thinking, how cool Alica was to have Max and I crash with her and Ryan and share stories from the past.

The next morning, before we took off for a long road trip, we hugged, and he jokingly said, "See you in 2 years." I little joke we have in the family because we all live so far apart. But I never saw him again after that.

However, since his passing, I feel him around all the time, especially last night and today. Every few months, I break down and watch videos of him. I couldn't do it often in the beginning because it was odd to believe he was just an image on the screen now, and not physically here. Last night I listened to music my brother Case made for him and looked at a bunch of photos, and it was hard to fall asleep. It started with an email from a college teammate of my brother Case. Andrew wrote me about running with Case in college and meeting Ryan at one of their races. Then, Andrew suggested he may have some people interested in joining the cause (waiting for that to be confirmed), as well as bringing up Notre Dame, where Ryan graduated. Can't I reach out to someone there, and find out what they can do to help? Well, what a great idea, I thought. The pic on the website under the ABOUT information was actually taken at a Notre Dame party with Ryan, me, and 3 other siblings. One of my favorite pics, because it was hard to ever be in the same place and time with so many of us.:)

I had this conversation with Andrew last night, and then this morning I get an email from a ND graduate who lives in Austin. He tells me he's going to forward the fundraising information on to the Alumni Director, and I freaked out, because I hadn't contacted anyone yet. It was like Ryan was listening to my phone conversation last night, and helped get the ball rolling. I would love to have Notre Dame lend a giving hand and help bring in donations. So, I hope to here from you!

Running is going good this week. Love the cool weather, and actually looking forward to another 18 mile run on the weekend! Yah, can't believe I just said that, but it gets addicting!

Have to sleep! DONT FORGET ABOUT BASKET GIVE AWAY!

GREAT RUNNER GIFT BASKET-FOR ONE LUCKY DONORThe basket includes the following:(1) Free entry to the Full or Half Marathon…$125 for 2010 OR 2011

(2) Rogue Running gift certificate…$100

(3) Two marathon tees…~$50

(4) Marathon logo eco-friendly bottle…$20

(5) Marathon bands CD

(6) Three pairs of socks

(7) Hydra Pouch (running bottle)

(8) Several gels, drink, bars

(9) Sun block

(10) Chap stick w/ SPF

(11) And more!

WHERE TO DONATE?-ROUGE RUNNING in Austin, on 5th and San Marcos St.(Thanks for the Support!)You may donate with a check or cash at this locationYou may also view the actual basket at this location

-ON LINEJust click on the donation link on this page, click on (Sarah Shay), and make a donation. Then, email me at runningforryan@gmail.com and send me your contact information.-

BY MAILChecks made to:Wounded Warrior ProjectMail to:Running For Ryanc/o Sarah ShayP.O. Box 300766Austin, TX 78701Any checks received by 12/20/09 by mail will also be entered into receive the gift basket.Thanks For Your Support!Email runningforryan@gmail.com with any questions.

18 Miles and Give Away-One week left

2009-12-13T18:21:00.000-08:00

Saturday I had a great run in, considering it was 18 miles. The longest I have ever ran at one time in my life so far. It felt really good until about mile 16, I wanted to quick so badly, but got in a mental zone, and completed the full run in almost exactly 3 hrs. (3:00.46)

I had a crazy dream about tornadoes the morning of the run, which left me a little uneasy, because I had a dream about a tornado ripping through my childhood home the day Ryan passed away. So, thankfully nothing out of the ordinary happened on Sat.

Sunday morning however, Max woke up with non-stop vomiting. Poor little guy. He's holding down liquids now, but feverish. So, probably staying home with him tomorrow morning as he recovers from the bug he caught.

So, I stayed at home all day and cleaned the puke, and baked Christmas cookies, wrap some gifts, did some laundry, and made some fresh bruchetta and some pretty good chicken with garlic pasta as he cuddled on the sofa and watched a bunch of holiday movies...sucking on pediolyte pops.

I have a couple of new team members, Andrew, and Joey, hooray! Have to mail out a bunch of letters again this week for the fundraiser, and continue to spread the word. Pretty tired from the run and got Max snuggling next to me so going to end this for now. Goodnight!

GREAT RUNNER GIFT BASKET-FOR ONE LUCKY DONOR
The basket includes the following:
(1) Free entry to the Full or Half Marathon…$125 for 2010 OR 2011
(2) Rogue Running gift certificate…$100
(3) Two marathon tees…~$50
(4) Marathon logo eco-friendly bottle…$20
(5) Marathon bands CD
(6) Three pairs of sock
s(7) Hydra Pouch (running bottle)
(8) Several gels, drink, bars
(9) Sun block
(10) Chap stick w/ SPF
(11) And more!
Those who donate $10 or more from 12/8/09-12/20/09 will have a chance to randomly receive this package. Your name will be entered into a drawing for every $10 donation. So, if you donate $20, your name is entered twice, and so on...
I will contact the lucky recipient on Monday, December 21, 2009
WHERE TO DONATE?
-ROUGE RUNNING in Austin, on 5th and San Marcos St.(Thanks for the Support!)
You may donate with a check or cash at this location
You may also view the actual basket at this location
-ON LINE
Just click on the donation link on this page, click on (Sarah Shay), and make a donation. Then, email me at runningforryan@gmail.com and send me your contact information.
-BY MAIL
Checks made to:
Wounded Warrior Project
Mail to:
Running For Ryan
c/o Sarah Shay
P.O. Box 300766
Austin, TX 78701
Any checks received by 12/20/09 by mail will also be entered into receive the gift basket.
Thanks For Your Support!
Email runningforryan@gmail.com with any questions.

Gift Basket Give Away

2009-12-07T17:58:00.000-08:00

Hi there again. Whew did another 17 mile run on Sunday, but definitely need to invest in some running gear that is not going to rip my skin open.

It's been busy, but good as we had a party last week that brought in about $500 so far for a quick meet and greet with snacks and drinks, thanks to Conley Sports.

GREAT RUNNER GIFT BASKET-FOR ONE LUCKY DONOR

The basket includes the following:

(1) Free entry to the Full or Half Marathon…$125 for 2010 OR 2011

(2) Rogue Running gift certificate…$100

(3) Two marathon tees…~$50

(4) Marathon logo eco-friendly bottle…$20

(5) Marathon bands CD

(6) Three pairs of sock

s(7) Hydra Pouch (running bottle)

(8) Several gels, drink, bars

(9) Sun block

(10) Chap stick w/ SPF

(11) And more!

I will contact the lucky recipient on Monday, December 21, 2009

WHERE TO DONATE?

-ROUGE RUNNING in Austin, on 5th and San Marcos St.(Thanks for the Support!)

You may donate with a check or cash at this location

You may also view the actual basket at this location

-ON LINE

Just click on the donation link on this page, click on (Sarah Shay), and make a donation. Then, email me at runningforryan@gmail.com and send me your contact information.

-BY MAIL

Checks made to:

Wounded Warrior Project

Mail to:

Running For Ryan

c/o Sarah Shay

P.O. Box 300766

Austin, TX 78701

Any checks received by 12/20/09 by mail will also be entered into receive the gift basket.

Thanks For Your Support!

Email runningforryan@gmail.com with any questions.

Liberating Run in the Rain

2009-12-01T18:27:00.000-08:00

Dreary, cold, rainy, and almost decided not to run today. But...I did, and it was so liberating to be alone on the trail, air so cool, I never felt tired the entire time. Got a 5 mile run in and though I got rained on, I had this dry-fit long sleeved shirt on my brother Ryan gave me about 5-6 years ago when he ran for Nike. It's still my favorite shirt to wear in the cold, and it got me through most of the run. I passed a total of 9 other runners braving the weather today, and the only spoiler was running through a 12 inches of water about 5 minutes for the finish (burrrrr).

Thinking so much about getting donations in lately. Not going to lie, I am having anxiety issues about meeting the goal lately. I haven't had a new donation in several days. I know I will have my peaks and valleys, but I only have 2 1/2 months to raise $9,000 more dollars! I came up with an idea while running, so going to implement that tomorrow when I send out more letters.

My 17 mile run went smoothly last Sunday, though the last 2 miles were really tough. I am going to do another 17 mile run this weekend. My recovery time is getting shorter, so I guess that means I am getting more used to the milage.:)

I miss my brother more than usual today, because I cried a little bit when running today because I had his shirt on, and Man in the Mirror came on my Ipod, and it made me emotional. Then, the Fray came on, then Chances Are by Five For Fighting, and John Mayer's , Say. I was in the mood for this type of music, but had to switch up in the last part of my run to clear my head...and finished off with some Guns N Roses and JayZ:)

2nd 16 MIile Run Completed, as Dad comes home

2009-11-24T18:21:00.000-08:00

Sunday was a Great day for a long run. It was cool the entire time, and the first 13 miles felt good...the last 3 were hard, but got it done!

Found out on Sunday that Max's dad also arrived safely back to the States from a year long deployment.

If all goes well, he will be back to enjoy Thanksgiving in Austin, but still waiting on the news, as he's still out of state for the time being.

Deployments are hard on everyone, the soldier...children...parents...siblings...spouses...and ex's (me), as we share a child and of course prayed for his safe return over the past several months. So, it will be a season to be extra grateful, and Max will get to catch up with him.

Donations are continuing to come in and I look forward to the holiday party on December 3rd for this fundraiser. If you are interested in attending, please email, runningforryan@gmail.com for details.

Got a nice little 5 mile with stroller run in today, but dang Max is growing! I think I am pushing around 80-100 lbs with him and the stroller! But it's good for my arms, since I never weight lift.

Tired, and heading to bed.

Over $1,000, but $9,000 to go!

2009-11-21T07:52:00.000-08:00

Just found out a friend from long ago is over in Iraq. His second tour, I believe. I wish him well and appreciate his service. Ran well last night, considering I was still feeling a little under the weather. It was drizzly and cool out, so a nice fast paced 7 mile run was had. It started out decent, but this guy passed me about 2 miles from the finish, and so I wanted to keep up with him for a good pace. I ended up passing him, and hearing his footsteps behind me, allowed me to go hard to the finish.

Mentally preparing for a 16 mile run tomorrow. If the weather stays overcast and cool, should be a great day for it!

Today Max and I are heading to the Domain (a shopping area) in N. Austin for a Christmas Tree lighting. It seems like the Christmas stuff starts earlier each year! But I love this time of the year, so the more lights and beautiful decorations, the better!

Thanks for continuing to DONATE! We have a way to go, but so appreciative of the donations to this point!

Austin Traffic, the bad and good

2009-11-19T19:20:00.000-08:00

Not going to lie, I feel beat down today. Started feeling it last night on my run. The weather was perfect, but the joint between my right arm and shoulder was aching badly, could not move my arm much on the run. Woke, up with a stinging pain, through my arm and got a little sickly at work. So, I had to skip a run tonight in hopes of recovering for a good run tomorrow night, and heading toward a 16 mile run on Sunday. It will be my longest distance yet!

Had a couple of emails about my Lupus. Strange that random strangers now email me, but that's what happens when you start to ask the nation for money to support our nation's severely wounded veterans.

I really only felt the affects of it during the summer when it was over 100 degrees almost daily. It started with a rash, the size of a dime on my face, and it wouldn't go away. So I went to a dermatologist who thought it was Lupus instantly. Blood work was done, and I had the antibodies in my blood related to Lupus. Not convinced, I asked for a skin biopsy. I deep tissue sample was taken from my face near my ear (you would never even know) and I was told that due to the extensive testing on the skin, it was 99.9 percent certain I had discoid lupus(external). So, then, a ton of blood was taken, about 10 tubes, and sent out to a lab in California. No kidney failure was detected, which is common in SLE (systemic lupus (internal)), but I carry the antibodies in my blood still. It's confusing, but long story short, I have a 10% chance of developing SLE. I was told to quit eating red meat, fried food, limit alcohol, and so on. Anything harmful to the liver and kidneys. I have to get my blood drawn every few months and follow up with my rheumatologist. Basically, it's an autoimmune disease where my good cells are attacking each other because they don't know better (silly little cells). Some days my ears burn when I have an inflammation. I only have a few noticeable spots near my neck and ears and since the sun has chilled out, it's been ok for the most part. In the summer I had one day when I was as stiff as a board and had to lie down almost all day, but other than that, I have felt good.

Which brings me back to Austin traffic. I have been here about a year, and well the one thing I still can't stand is traffic! Especially when you are feeling icky and just want to have soup and lie down. So, after being in traffic for an hour, I opened up my mailbox to find a large envelope. Huh? Well, it was the bumper sticker I ordered a few days ago. I was thinking about another way to get the word out about donating. I thought, well, I am in traffic all day, why not get a bumper sticker made. So, it came in the mail, after I forgot I even ordered it. When I looked at it, I nearly cried, as it humbled my attitude about being a tiny bit sick, and let me realize once again there's a race to run for some pretty amazing soldiers, and I can do this!

So, attached is the bumper sticker...simple and sweet, and hopefully something random strangers will see and type into their computers...and click on the link...and give....give to all those who gave us so much!

11.11

2009-11-15T19:22:00.000-08:00

That was the amount of my lunch with Max at Jason's Deli today. Automatically thought of November 11 (Veteran's Day). And so, I pushed a side the minor aches and pains of my body from a 15 mile run the night before and told myself, to stay focused on the goal at hand. Recovery from the long runs are becoming easier each time around, and I am curious how a 20 mile run feels, versus a 15 miler run.

I also discovered that the smell I always smell under the Congress bridge on Town Lake aren't silk worms, rather bat doo-doo. When I lived in South Korea, they roasted silk worms for a snack, kind of like peanuts, and the smell is very similar to bat poop in my opinion. I never tried the worms, because, well octopus was as daring as I got in food tasting.

Networking is going to be an ongoing goal for me, as I was totally shy to ask for donations in the beginning. I didn't have a plan, I knew I just wanted to run and make my brother proud to finish a marathon, and do something that could help the awesome men and women in our military. It's a volunteer service, which means, we don't have to question "why did they volunteer?", we just have to remember, "they did volunteer", and that is why we can sip our mocha lattes and read a paper on a sunny Sunday afternoon. If you are reading this and haven't done so, PLEASE DONATE...AND TELL EVERYONE YOU KNOW TO DONATE. EVERY SINGLE CENT COUNTS. IF YOU HAVE 5 BUCKS, I AM GRATEFUL. IF YOU HAVE 50 BUCKS, I AM GRATEFUL. Thank you! Your kindness will not be forgotten!

Join The Team!

2009-11-12T20:00:00.000-08:00

Bench in Central Park, New York:

"It is necessary to dig deep into oneself to discover the hidden grain of steel called will" -Ryan Shay
(I always come back to this when I feel overwhelmed)

I appreciate the funds donated so far! This challenge still has a way to go in terms of getting donations collected. Please don't be shy and join the team! If you have ever donated to a cause, like LiveStrong, donating is the same way. Just click on the donation link and follow instructions. The same goes for joining the team. Just add your name on the team page, and set a goal. Maybe its $250, or maybe it's $2000....

You can also let people know you are going to run in the Austin Marathon, Half Marathon, or 5K on 2-14-10. I cannot pay for your entry fee, but if you decide to run to raise money, just join the team, and tell people you are running for this cause and those who raise $200 plus will receive a shirt representing Running For Ryan for Wounded Warriors, and wear it as part of the team on race day.

Any questions can be emailed to: runningforryan@gmail.com

It's a great time of the year to support our military and their families. Remember, the Wounded Warrior Project helps empower seriously wounded veterans who often lose hope when returning from overseas. It also helps families, who are often full time caregivers by doing things such as weekend retreats. Here families can relax for a few days and encourage each other as they share similar challenges now and in the future.

Last couple of days were good runs. Warming up for another 15 mile run. This time on Sat., as that's a day I can have Max hang out with grandma for a bit. The training is not routine, but definitely fitting in runs whenever I can. Still lucky to get 5 or 6 run days a week.:)

Also happy my best friend, who was suppose to leave for awhile for work is not flying out for another few weeks:) Can't wait to hang out again!

15 Miles! Today Was For Ft. Hood Families

2009-11-08T20:11:00.000-08:00

The Button Reads:
"If you don't stand behind our troops feel free to stand in front of them"

I walked outside this morning to a cool, foggy, and drizzly morning... perfect for me...the colder the better. I was mentally ready, needed to refocus on marathon after a sad week. Off I went, and it felt so good. After a half mile into the run, a dog came up from behind me and jumped on my back, and it scared the @$#! out of me. The funny thing is, the owner saw the dog, and kind of laughed as the dog wouldn't stop jumping on me. Anyway, no bites, and happy that it was just a hyper dog and not a crazy one, I kept going.

My thoughts were full, the soldiers, my family, a friend in Africa who will do great work over there, and back to the soldiers. So, when I felt like jello around the 12 mile mark, I focused on the goal, and luckily at the 15th mile, I had a gush of energy to finish the run with somewhat of a decent running pace. Totally dehydrated though...not too smart...I will not go that far without drinking anything again.

Today Moby's "Fall Apart"(I think that's the name) and Black Eyed Peas "Meet Me Halfway" were songs that stuck out in my head. Especially that Moby tune, it just got me really focused and in the mood to run harder.

I am toast. Goodnight!

Looking forward to December

2009-11-06T21:33:00.000-08:00

Not going to deny it, November is starting off not so great. I was so consumed with thoughts to day, I don't' even know how I functioned well enough to work. Took the day off of running as the aftermath of crashing on the cement a couple of days ago had caught up with my arms and my left knee. The friend I mentioned yesterday was a primary witness to the horrific scene at Hood. I saw this person briefly this morning to give much deserved hugs and then this person had to head back for more question answering after an all night briefing session. Warm thoughts to this soldier.
But I had to distract myself and took Max to see "A Christmas Carol". Not too shabby, but a little much on the special affects. Afterwards, I felt calmer and ready to refocus on the running challenge and mentally prepare for the upcoming months of training and getting those donations. Then, I got an email about the Camp Mabry Veteran's Day race being canceled, due to the shootings at Ft. Hood. It totally put me in a downer mood, as I was so looking forward to running for the veterans on that particular day. It was the race I wanted to pump me up more for the marathon challenge. I know eventually I will come around to being a little less emotional, but honestly I have to get a team together. It's just so much more inspirational and really the best way to achieve this goal.
Sunday's going to be my longest run yet. Really looking forward to it as the milage increase is definitely building my confidence.
Gotta sleep...Max only sleeps in on school days... ha ha

Ft. Hood

2009-11-05T20:17:00.000-08:00

I didn't need anything else to be emotional about, but life happens. On top of thinking about my brother so much lately, what happened at Ft. Hood today just blew me away. I have visited there a few times in the past couple of months, even watched Gary Sinise perform there with his Lt. Dan Band, which by the way was a cool concert from a super cool group of musicians. One of my best friends was there today, and my stomach just turned, but she's ok. Another person dear to me was in the middle of the action and I am blessed he is doing ok, though covered in others' blood and a witness to the tragedy.
Unable to go to a locked down Army Post and give support, I ran. The first half was brutal...couldn't focus, wanted to leave town, but after the sun went down, my body cooled, and I got a burst of energy to finish off the last few miles of a 7 mile run. Had a co-worker run with me today, and he kicked my butt by two minutes, impressive, and well he has bragging rights now, as he thought for sure he wouldn't be able to keep up with me...ha ha, yah right:)
All my thoughts to the families of those lost today, and everyday when we lose one of our servicemen and women.

Nothing Broken

2009-11-04T19:57:00.000-08:00

So, it's pretty obvious I enjoy a run without stroller when I can, purely due to the fact that I can run easier. I am more tired from a 5 mile run pushing a stroller, than a 10 mile solo run. Anyway, had a chance to do a solo run tonight, and I was in a rush because of Austin traffic! An hour and 10 min. to get from South to North Austin. So, I rushed out for a run, in the dark, without a light and had to do a little cross-country run for about a quarter mile (no sidewalk), couldn't see a thing, and tripped on a curb. Landed so hard on my wrists and my head just hit the cement a bit, fall broken by my hands and left knee. After 10 minutes of stinging pain, I recovered and decided it was best to head back and put in an extra good run tomorrow. Yesterday was so strange emotionally as it marked the 2nd anniversary of Ryan's death. I was high from a great run, but couldn't sleep, kept having dreams waking me up. I am one who always remember a dream, but can't remember anything last night. Needless to say, it was a restless night. Today was better, minus the fall, nothing broken but my ego, as the cars drove by with me kissing the sidewalk:)

2 Years

2009-11-02T20:24:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow (Nov. 3rd) is two years ago that Ryan died. I think with out knowing it, I get emotional around this time of the year. Because, I remember going through the same emotions last year. I used to cry often when I first started to get back into running, because every time I physically felt pain, I felt emotional as well towards Ryan. But this past Sunday and Monday were blissful running days as I felt like I was gliding through my workouts. So, as my brother Stephan just told me the other day...as sad as it can be to think of him while running..."it can be very inspirational"

Warm thoughts to my family and Alicia today. Ryan was so loved.

This Day Light Saving Thing Is Gonna Be Tricky

2009-11-01T19:01:00.000-08:00

Good weekend. Fun was had by Max as he trick or treated for about a half hour and was done...he had more fun handing out candy than going door-to-door. Had a 12 mile run on Friday as I was free to run without stroller, but strangely my second half was a lot stronger than the first half, which wasn't so great.

But...I have some songs that get me through certain moments in a run, and lately it has been Cold Play's Viva la Vida or whatever the name is..during my dragged out parts in a run. Kick Start My heart gets me up the hills, Sand Storm for a little fast paced running, and ending the run with some John Mayer. Could run to all of his music, but not fast enough when I need a little push.

Took Saturday off as it was loaded with things to do and of course Halloween for Max. Today I was up North in Leander with Max's aunt and uncle so I did a nice 6 mile run in the neighborhood and felt quite better since the 12 miler.

Awesome that Meb one the NYC marathon this morning...can't believe it's been almost 2 years since Ryan was there. What a roller coaster ride 2 years has been!

Now...how I am going to train, now that it's dark after work...I need to get a strategy figured out. Totally forgot about the DST thing! Might switch to morning running, which I am not a fan!

Seriously...Seriously? 47

2009-10-28T18:53:00.000-07:00

I was chatting before about how I feel Ryan hanging around lately...subtle little signs...like turning my radio on...opening the trunk to my car...and today...well...let me tell you...

I was on the trail running today...muggy...kind of hot...mosquitoes...the whole works. I wasn't feeling the run from the start, and thought, if I can just get this run in around 47 minutes, I will be happy...knowing under 45 was out of the question.

Well almost to my finish and I peep at my watch, and I freaked out...it stopped...who knows when exactly... on 47:00 min. I don't even think I had run for 47 mins already, so that was the weird thing...and how the watched stopped...I don't know

So, it's like, maybe he read my thoughts and played a game on me? I mean I did ask him the night my radio turned on by itself if he was hanging out...so whatever, it freaks me out in a good way.

Rushing this post, as I gotta get Max off to bed. But earlier on Facebook with a sister in Detroit, and brother in Korea...gotta love being able to have 3 conversations thousands of miles apart. Though I am so not tech savvy...modern technology does have its positive moments.

Included is a photo I took as soon as I got home, because, 47:00 exactly...what's going here? Things that make you go....hmmmmmmm:)

Another Perfect Run Day!

2009-10-28T14:31:00.001-07:00

Yesterday was awesome. When I was finished, it was like I only ran 2 miles. Another great temperature day to run today as well. The group of people helping me with this fundraiser have been working hard, and I look forward to adding new team members as we march towards the $10,000 goal for 2-14-2009.

I have been feeling like Ryan is around me lately more than usual, the whole CD player going on by itself.

Than yesterday I was getting Max out of the car for a run and he wanted the umbrella out of the trunk...so I was like...let me run over to the driver's side and push the button...but the trunk opened by itself, before I made it to the button!

I paused for a moment, and then went on with my run, but couldn't help but feel a strong spirit hovering around me.

Off to run!

Emotional Monday

2009-10-26T19:32:00.001-07:00

Hated to go into work...turn on my computer, and see the deadly news of troops in Afghanistan on Monday. Doesn't help that someone close to me is over there.

The rain today was very symbolic of the tears being shed over the loss.

It's also dawned on me that I am thinking about Ryan so much more lately...probably due to the fundraiser, but just feel this constant strong presence around me. (The quote in photo is from Ryan and placed on a bench in Central Park taken by my older brother Case's friend)

Last night I freaked out because as I was reading a story to Max in bed, the CD player in the living room started playing. No one was in the living room and all the lights were off. So, I crept inside, peaked around, and shut the radio off.

It was weird, because it took me back to New York City when I took off to drive back to Maryland after Ryan's death. My radio hadn't worked in my car for 2 years, and all of a sudden, as I said goodbye to my mom, brother, and sister, the radio started to play (I just died in your arms tonight) as I headed back. I immediately called my mom, and told her Ryan did it. So last night, when the radio just turned on by itself, I jumped!

Was that Ryan again?

Couldn't run today...to cold and drizzly to push Max...but had a great running weekend. Look forward to running a 10K at Camp Mabry on Veteran's Day...probably the only race I will do until the Marathon...

The plaque reads: "It is necessary to dig deep within oneself to discover the hidden grain of steel called will" Ryan Shay

Need sleep:)

Warriors, Not Victims

2009-10-26T12:54:00.000-07:00

http://theconversation.blogs.nytimes.com/2009/10/22/support-for-the-troops/?emc=eta1

Just Another Great Story from WWP

2009-10-23T20:36:00.000-07:00

http://wwpsoldierride.blogspot.com/

Great run today. An amazing 10 mile run after a very encouraging meeting with the Conley Sports Team. Yep, and I pretty much balled my eyes out on the trail today for a few seconds...because it's pretty hard to run and cry at the same time. But today was extremely emotional, in a very positive way. It's awesome to have such a great support group already, and Austin is just growing on me more and more each day:) Maybe it's the cooler weather lately:)

I went through the WWP site again to look at programs and stories, and this one gets to my heart. The smiles on these veteran's faces as they bike from city to city just leaves me speechless. It's so hard to complain about anything, when I can't even know what it takes to have such determination after receiving life altering injuries. Bless these guys!

http://www.austin360.com/recreation/content/recreation/stories/2009/03/0323fitcity.html

Running For Ryan Dot Com

2009-10-23T14:26:00.000-07:00

Joey Trimyer, a recent new friend from Austin, has volunteerd to make a website for runningforryan...
It will be runningforryan.com
This will become the main source of info. for the fundraiser. It's in the works and should be completed shortly!
Thanks Joey!
http://www.runningforryan.com/

Perfect Run Day:)

2009-10-20T19:01:00.001-07:00

Today was awesome as far as running could go...got a nice 5 miler in, and Max was an angel in the stroller. Been noticing the same people running the trail now. Makes me wonder if they think, hey there's that mom running with her son again?
My body feels really wierd since last night in a good way...loose and energetic. I've been eating a large salad loaded with a lot of veggies including avacado, and a bit of cheese and fruit and yogurt for snacks and I have been noticing the change of my work outs when I eat well, versus grabbing a crappy snack from 7-11 during the work week. I know it's not rocket science, but it's working. Saw a lady push a dog in a baby stroller today. At first, I thought, seriously? But then, I thought, why not...it was a small dog and probably enjoys the fresh air and couldn't keep up on a run with her. Maybe I will see someone's pet pig in a stroller next?

First 12 Miler...And It Hurt My Butt

2009-10-19T18:45:00.001-07:00

So, my long runs are not scheduled. It's either, Friday, Saturday or Sunday. Whenever I can have someone watch Max, so I can do it without the stroller. I did a 12 mile run on Saturday morning, and after mile 10, my butt actually started to hurt a little. But I wiggle two more miles out, and completed the run.

It didn't really boost my confidence for the marathon, but I do realize I have about 4 more months of training. I can't kid myself...the Lupus flares can play a role on how good my running will be, but usually it's after the run, that I feel the irritation and inflammation on my face.

Donations are not where I wanted them to be, but help is on the way soon, and looking forward to the extra motivation it will give me to complete this. Pretty tired tonight....but so happy to open my fridge to all the fruit and veggies I prepared on Sunday...it's such a time saver!

By the way, saw "Where the Wild Things Are" with Max. Totally didn't expect the movie to be the way it was. I thought it was kind of dark for a 4 1/2 year old, but he said he liked it and wanted to see it again!

Just For Fun

2009-10-19T18:43:00.000-07:00

http://completerunning.com/archives/2007/06/18/famous-celebrity-marathon-runners/

Celebs who have completed a marathon...

Dreams

2009-10-14T18:06:00.000-07:00

I had a dream that wounded soldiers were cheering me on. It was one of those dreams where you feel like you are running in place and not getting anywhere, but eventually got to the end of race. Which made me think of "real life" soldiers who may feel like they are working so hard "and getting nowhere" while healing and learning to live with life altering physical and and emotional wounds.

Which kind of reminded me of my car in a strange way. I am happy to have a car that I don't make monthly payments on. It's not fancy, but it's one less bill I have to pay every month. But in July, I hit an exit gate while going 5 miles per hour (because someone asked me a question and I turned my head) and dented the front of my car which kind of jacked up the driver's side door. Well, I was shocked and kind of irritated because I did not want to buy a new car, and did not want to fix it and spend a couple thousand dollars. So, by the next morning, I embraced the dents and dings, and was happy to have a running car. The car still runs great, but you wouldn't know just by looking at it.

Sort of like having an injury when physical scars are very visible, but underneath may be a strong willed individual ready to keep on going and reaching new goals. That's why I am doing this. There are so many men and women who need the Wounded Warrior Project to help them believe and achieve life's new challenges. Please cheer them on by donating whatever you can, today!

http://www.kintera.org/faf/donorreg/donorpledge.asp?ievent=294758&supId=265095069&msource=LSCAUS09BF

2009-10-13T09:18:00.000-07:00

I really need some help with donations. Please take a moment and visit my page and donate for the fight against cancer. Me and my sister are walking in the 5k Livestrong Challenge on the 25th in Austin. Thanks.

Posted on Facebook, by my friend. She's raising $250, and needs, $180. For Livestrong Challenge. Every little dollar counts:)

Live To Run, Or Run To Live?

2009-10-12T18:36:00.000-07:00

After missing a run, due to cold rain, and not wanting to push Max through it this weekend, I felt a little out of place. Mondays are my rest day, I had a case of OCD about missing the run, but in the end , I enjoyed a very non-scheduled Sunday, and had a blast with Max just hanging out. So, at work this morning, and briefly talking about guys, yes, it happens:) and one co-worker told me I needed to put more make-up on, let my hair down, wear some high heels, and "not live for running". Which was funny, because all I could think about was how a run was going to feel on a Monday after a busy day in the office? So, I told her, yah I know, after February, it will calm down. But it did get me thinking about how obsessed one can become while prepping for a major sporting event. So, while I do want to finish this race, I do see how it is ok, especially as a busy mom, to miss a day here and there and not get too worked up about ruining my perfect running schedule...which I don't even have anyway...

What Happens When Stroller Falls Into The Lake...

2009-10-08T18:25:00.000-07:00

...cell phone and car keys follow. Yes, this happened yesterday, on a 5 mile run with Max. Pausing for a quick duck feed on the end of the route I forgot to lock the stroller in place. After turning my back to feed crackers to ducks with Max, some random runner yelled, "Whoa, the stroller", and well by the time I turned around, it already made the plunge!
I was able to fish the phone and keys out, but the phone was instantly dead. Luckily, it dried up by morning and works now:)
Then, I had another little surprise this morning...I was hit with some little bug. But I bought this stuff called, Sinus Buster, which was recommended by my boss. It was $16 for over-the-counter, so I thought, it better work. So far, I like the results. It's all natural and made with Capsaicin Pepper.
So, no run today, but if I can flush this nasty crud out of me, looking forward to run in cooler weather on Friday, as the temp "is suppose to drop into the 70's"
Yesterday I met a great guy who is going to make a website for me to reach a wider donating audience. Thanks, Joey, for taking the time to meet, and volunteer for the challenge.
I had a few days of blah-ness, I won't pretend...maybe it was leading up to getting this bug. But over the weekend, I might have doubted myself a few times. But it will all work out in the end...it has to:)

Single Parenting and a Marathon

2009-10-06T20:26:00.000-07:00

I love my son, as he is my number one fan to see me finish this Marathon. Our schedules are full, and time is precious, but we have worked in a routine that seems to be working well so far. A great way to maximize time is the whole buy groceries on Sunday idea. We go together, and he likes to weigh all the produce and print the stickers out for the bags. But the real life saver, is chopping up all the veggies and fruit and storing them in the fridge so they are ready for the entire week. I am sure this concept has been thought of by many intelligent parents around the world, but I only recently began doing this, and it helps! It also helps prevent me from buying more foods with preservatives, as that is an irritant for Lupus. And let me just say...if you notice someone with a rash like mark on their face, don't blurt out, "You got something contagious or something"? Had this happen to me today, and I was kind of shocked, by calmly replied, no, it's Lupus. I am lucky that my few leisons are concealable when my hair is down, but they are visible when my hair is up, like on this day. I don't talk about it much, but I can understand how those with extreme cases can really feel self-conscience. Will discuss more on this topic when I am ready.

But back to Max, and running...we are making it work. I do promote this activity to all parents who need/want to get out and fit exercise into their routine. I bought this jogging stroller, probably my 5th one now, on Craigslist for $50, and that beats a monthly gym membership fee! After every run I tell him how much he is helping mama out, and he feels proud, and I reward him weekly for being so patient with a little toy or treat. :)

And by the way, how many 4 1/2 year olds love Cyndi Lauper? Almost daily, as we head to Town Lake, he says, mama, play my favorite song..."that wanna have fun song" How cute:)

Hmm, well, what can I say?

2009-10-05T18:51:00.000-07:00

Mondays are usually my rest days...thankfully as the first day of work always seems to tire me out each week. Thanks "J" for calling me in the middle of it, so I could have a laugh and smile in the middle of a crazy Monday. Hope to see you soon!

Ran into a veteran, who was wounded while serving, and he is starting a new career in the area. All the best to him. Once again, just another way to humble myself when I feel a little blah...and unsure about things. Goodnight.

Wounded Warriors race draws hundreds, benefits injured vets

2009-10-05T11:01:00.001-07:00

http://www.norwichbulletin.com/sports/x576536337/Wounded-Warriors-race-draws-hundreds-benefits-injured-vets

Sunday Running

2009-10-04T13:12:00.000-07:00

I have to give a shout out to my brother Stephan, who finshed in the top 15 at the USA Men's 10 Mile Championship today...and to Abdi who won the whole thing! A truly great guy, so congrats!

Also to my friend, Brian, for doing so well in the Portland Marathon.:) You sure took advantage of the cool weather up there. So, a great day for 3 runners, and my run wasn't bad either today. Max let me push him through the muddy trail without much pause, but the sticky air wasn't welcoming. But, we finished, and it put a nice end to a pretty productive running week.

Justin Gabriel

2009-10-02T19:33:00.001-07:00

A local employee at Run Tex, the company that supplies water on Town Lake daily for runners, was severely injured a couple of weeks ago from a fall. My thoughts are with his family. Get bettter Justin!

http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/justingabriel/mystory

Austin City Limits

2009-10-02T19:17:00.000-07:00

The 3 day music festival began today, which meant NOBODY was running on the trail except me and maybe a dozen others. This lead to a great run, and my first 10 miler since pre-summer running! Whew....so now there is hope of a 15...and 20 miler...down the road. :)

Starting to feel the flow

2009-09-30T18:37:00.001-07:00

Approaching one month, tomorrow, since this challenge began. The last couple of days have been good running days. Music helps a ton! Last couple of downloads include some old school, "Rhythm is a Dancer" and "Rhythm of the Night" by Generation 90, I think. Also put John Mayer's "Say", which is an awesome song lyrically...not a fast paced tempo song, but still motivates me with the words.:)

I am so lucky to have been asked to have the Running For Ryan For Wounded Warrior Project be the beneficiary for an upcoming holiday party. This is huge news...and an event that will hopefully bring in a lot of donations for this fundraiser. I cannot thank Gary Brimmer (retired Army Sgt.) enough for introducing John Conley to me! This week is flying by and Max is still the best little buddy I could have for helping mama get her training in daily.

"It gives you hope that there's something after injury," Strobel said. "You're not just a statistic."

2009-09-28T17:56:00.000-07:00

http://www.app.com/article/20090927/NEWS/909270340/1070/NEWS02/Sea+Girt+camp+offers+R&R+for+wounded+warriors

Reading About Running

2009-09-25T20:51:00.000-07:00

Browsing the book store tonight, and glanced at a Runner's World mag to see they wrote a story of Zola Budd. So, yah I actually bought a Runner's World, just to read the article at home. Last time I purchased a running magazine was when they did the spread of Ryan in RW after he died, and it took a few weeks for me to open up the magazine and read word for word, the events that unfolded on Nov. 3, 2007.

But today, my attention went to Zola Budd's name. I am not an expert in running these days, though Ryan was a professional runner, I did not follow every race he ran. I do remember when he won the Mercedes US Men's Marathon Championships in 2003, I was teaching in S. Korea. I ran into the teacher's lounge and told everyone, hey my little brother just won this marathon at 24 years old! I was so proud:)

So, back to Zola. I totally remember her as the barefoot runner, and the whole Mary Decker incident in the 84 Olympics. So, I am going to read about her this evening, as RW exclaims, her life story is stranger and more inspiring than we know.

As I begin to run more and try to get healthier, I am becoming more interested in running events, and articles... which I would have found maybe a little boring back in the day.

As for my run today, it was great. Good pace, hot out, so got a good sweat out of it! Trying a 10 miler tomorrow, as I can run without stroller, and will take advantage of the lone run!

Going to work on making a flyer to get a few more runners to participate in running for this fundraiser with me, and also to get the word out to a larger population about donating online

Thank You, Thank You Cold Weather!

2009-09-22T18:48:00.000-07:00

If you haven't noticed by now, I am a Northern gal, and Texas heat, though nice while chilling at a pool, sucks for me to do a run!
I think it was in the low 70's today, after the rain, with a breeze, and I tore up the trail with Max in tow as we did, what felt like, an easy 5 miler. I would have run 10, if Max could sit in a stroller that long. The days just flow right into eachother, as time seems so precious. I feel like February is going to roll around quite quick. Brainstorming for fundraising ideas...and I know I need to focus more on getting the word around if I want to get that goal met by 2-14-10....wheels are turning!

Running and Life in General

Happy Two Thousand and Twelve!

F E A R

January 4, 2010 New Year, New Begining

DEC. 5, 2010: The Infamous Appendectomy

Running For Ryan and Pete, and our Heroes

2 WEEKS BEFORE RACE DAY!

http://online.wsj.com/article/SB10001424052748704361504575552311611374060.html?KEYWORDS=meb+keflezighi

OCTOBER 17, 2010 22 MILES!

OCTOBER 4, 2010 21 Miles and a Goat:)

SEPTEMBER 29, 2010

9-25-2010 18 MILES & KIND DONATIONS

SEPTEMBER 21, 2010

September 20, 2010 16 miles and a Bite

SEPTEMBER 13, 2010

8/29/10

"Pete" Predrag Dakovic -Goodbye My Friend 8/14/10

8-10-10

THE SONG OF THE DAY IS...

GETTING BACK ON TRACK 7-29-10

A SMALL WORLD

JULY 17, 2010

JULY 15, 2010

JULY 13, 2010

JULY 1, 2010---Hometown Visit

SUNBLOCK FROM SCAPE

IT WAS BOUND TO HAPPEN

THE STICKIEST DAY FOR ME YET

2nd Annual Ryan Shay Mid Summer Night Run

Meeting A Survivor, Doug Ulman, CEO of LIVESTRONG

NOTHING ABOUT RUNNING TODAY, June 6, 2010

M E M O R I A L D A Y, May 31, 2010

Merciful Weather, May 25, 2010

MAY 23, 2010

***M A Y***

May 4, 2010

T R U S T

You Never Know

2010 ING NYC MARATHON CHALLENGE

April 7, 2010

March 29, 2010

March 3, 2010

March 2, 2010

MARCH 1, 2010

New Challenge

10-10-10 CHICAGO MARATHON

LOVE

"It is necessary to dig deep within oneself to discover that hidden grain of steel called will." -- Ryan Shay

Almost 2 Week Count Down

January 26, 2010

Humbling Weekend, January 24, 2010

Team Sente! Hello! January 21, 2010

Very Inspiring Weekend!

22 Miles in 22 Degree Weather1/10/10

January 7, 2010

1-2-10 20 Miles! Yah, pretty stoked:)

12/31/09 Last Post of the Year/Decade!

Running and Life in General 12/30/09

12/28/09 Great Day...even with the crash...ouch!

CHRISTMAS EVE

Hello SENTE!

THANKS FOR DONATING!

Vintage Ryan Pic , just because

18 Miles and Give Away-One week left

Gift Basket Give Away

Liberating Run in the Rain

2nd 16 MIile Run Completed, as Dad comes home

Over $1,000, but $9,000 to go!

Austin Traffic, the bad and good

11.11

Join The Team!

15 Miles! Today Was For Ft. Hood Families

Looking forward to December

Ft. Hood

Nothing Broken

2 Years

This Day Light Saving Thing Is Gonna Be Tricky

Seriously...Seriously? 47

Another Perfect Run Day!

Emotional Monday

M A Y